Ah!

Bad words I did not want to come came for someone else.  I dunno I feel so humiliated to be insulted by them.

Now, what??  No, I did not call anyone the N word in my mind on purpose.  I think it should be legal, but I don't do it.

Look, about the experimenters too I feel really bad.  I dunno what's going on.  I feel bad for the others.  I told my mom about her being agitating.  It was serious.  I even thought that.  I could tell the danger was coming.  I am not happy.  I didn't think that.  I wanted not to have that come out.  Help!  You all are copying something my Gramma did, did something really bad so I'd talk back and look bad and you use that against me.

What They Did

They set me up to think of bad words and then talked about someone who we should respect..  I tried to fix it, but it already happened.  I don't know how it was on purpose, but it's not.  I got some nasty messages.  Look, I said leave me alone, and my mom was being mean, too.

I don't think you really wanna do this.  I'm ugly, anyway..

STOP BEING MEAN TO ME

Problems

I asked my mom why she was acting agitated cuz it brought bad words to mine.  No one better make fun of me or pick on me for it.  She just left and said she was waiting for the chicken to thaw to eat.  I think she is copying my dad.  I said, "What do you think I'm stupid?  I asked you a question."

I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE!

Problem

They are being annoying to me in my spare time.  They are dancing around saying I received a negative message.

I hope you aren't thinking of that girl.

WHY ARE YOU BEING WASTEFUL OF MY SPARE TIME

YOU WANNA JOB?   WELL, GUESS WHAT?  I DON'T GOT ONE!

Look I don't care how the page loads.

These people keep talking to me via how the computer loads every time telling me insulting lies to submit to about who I am, how I think, and what happens to me or not.

People are trying to make me feel bad out of nowhere.  I don't live my life messing up.  I'm constantly being wronged.

LOL Apologize?

The N word came tom my mind on accident and mostly was directed away from someone.  That's up to you if you wanna joke me.

You can't sit on the sidelines and adjust my actions to perfection and hate on me in the moment not knowing that until I realize it later.

Also, you can't act condescending to me all the time and mad at little things.

I said I'm not here to be your slave.  For the sake of others I spoke out.  I dunno part of what they're doing.  A nice person is not someone who hurts you.

You look like a scared little bug.

What did I do wrong?  My thoughts did not break thru the cusp.  I didn't mean to talk about someone.  What's the next conflict so I can dish out the rules?

So, my Facebook is slow to post these quotes now.  It messes up.

I just wanna forget about some things for other reasons, but I think it's sad and bad.

There's someone on Facebook representing something against me who keeps posting to me.

It has come to my attention someone wants self-pity for what I said.  I am sorry, don't remember insulting you.  I don't mean to burst your bubble by saying you're bemused at me.  You do look down on me for the bad things people say about me.  I just noticed you all are participating in my punishment, which is sick.  I am just a servant to Ellen.  I mean it in the way that we all are.

I see you're just wasting my life.

Is Facebook down?

"You're the one with the problem.."

They are "making a big deal over nothing."

I ALREADY SAID YOU ARE ALWAYS BEING MEAN TO ME

The wrong things I said the other/s thought were cuza you.  Just clearing that up, too..

So, that was so you know you got what you want covered with me.

How pathetically cruel, you wanna k*** me for her?

The Future

I may talk about her, but I'm mostly onta you.

THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE.

I'm not worried about what I said.  Make some rules.  I'll tell you if I approve.

I'm really sorry but don't know what is flat out wrong with what I said.  I should have if I could thought sooner not to think of the other person.  I could feel it in me.  It finally came to my knowledge.  I just had to complain about my problem.  Something made me go coocoo, maybe the medicine.  I didn't settle down an d hink straight.  I wonder why.  Can you help with the problem?

So, why is this other person mean to me?  You told her to do it!

So, what's it to ya?  Superstitious about my right to be interested in things like Ellen and what they have to say?

I even said sorry.  Someone is being a "party pooper."

I see people are fooling around like they can mother me.  How pathetic.

They keep communicating with me all meanly.  It's not very good.

I already told you what made me mad.  QUIT TELLING ME WHAT I CAN AND CAN'T DO.

I was mad and hit my sofa 1 week, as well as throwing things in my room that won't break.  I happened to be interested in looking like Ellen at the time and other people who do that.  Now, they are being superstitious and telling me I can't get into that stuff.  I feel it's not there.

I'm just upset at being mistreated.

I wasn't even trying to be mean to someone.

I don't need someone who doesn't care about me bossing me around.

If you're still wondering, I don't know what just made me mad.  I just feel like I've done nothing and these experimenters are incredibly mean.

What is your problem?  Nothing just happened.  You  have no right to do this.  Why can't I just relax?

I'm tired of  ya'll doing things for this other person while I suffer barely able to stay awake but not time to sleep.  It's about her against me, but you say it's me against her.

They are threatening me.

The Oscars were lousy, especially at the end, but better than last year.

I added more to the top.

See, she can do what she wants.  I will just be mad at those who know me for preventing me from not feeling in trouble.

You people are pathetic and can't leave me alone.

She's being mean.  I was upset at the Oscars.  My mom made me think of the N word and they made fun of me at the Oscars in coded message.  They were joking about her getting attention.  They said it in a bemused way, tho.  That could have triggered my talk.  I'm not sure what I'd say otherwise.  I didn't really attack her!

So, no, I did not offend anyone.

I see I was upset she got what I am in trouble not to get.  I was talking about it.  Mainly the fact I'm in trouble for nothing.

I also edited the heading of this blog to explain more about what I tend to do it seems.

All I Made My Point Last Night

was why that girl feels so confident posting pictures of her getting attention with a bemused grin and beady (as in dark and  bit bulbous alluding) eyes.  This is as to what I started discussing.  Other things came up.  I said last night even noting that bad.  I just wanted to know why I get in trouble for nothing and not her, showing off.  I found that my point, the me getting in trouble.  Not so interested in her bemused looks themselves, after all.

So..

Is it safe to go to bed?

Update

New heading.

I don't like someone using someone against me, like I can't handle my life.  Does this prove the lie?  Why can't I just go to bed feeling good after doing what others find nasty?  I was dodging being bad.  I will not take lies and harsh treatment, when others treat me much better.  I mean lying that I did something.  This is my personal journal.  I will not sit here and calculate the things that go by like this.  I'll just post it.  This is where I think my thoughts out and get help.

I can't believe how forward outcasted personalities are to me.

Yes, I am sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings.  I'm glad I roped off the problem.

Like I can't have them.  I'm not sure, but I think someone else thinks that, too.

I have things in my life I'm willing to share, but this person keeps thinking people I meet are for her.

I saw someone I liked from Australia who was very attractive and now I have someone else from Australia who keeps answering my posts, an older lady.  I know she was assigned to be all up in my life like that.  I don't think I'm the one who'd need that check-up.  They're ruining it for me, sending me meaningless messages.

Let's clear away this point 1st so baby is not stuck in the middle.

I got upset and hit my sofa one week.  So what?  You took away something important I felt in my life or else not much would be that important to me.  Including this punishment.

my life is rough and tough for no reason.  I feel stress even writing this, like I'll "lose all my friends."

That's partly a poor example.  I don't really mind.  It's just

Just figuring.  I am not out to get your kids.

If I don't care about your "marriage," I don't care about your kids.

Don't lie and tell me I was being mean to this person.  I just said others were mean to others.  Except, they are nicer to this person than to me.  I had more dirt that they don't gotta do much to get attention.  They just live life like a normal person, grow and develop, and get lucky.

They think it's a project.

To be nice to someone and to treat me meanly.

Lie

Doing something wrong is no excuse for someone to be mean.

What did others do to deserve that, be treated better than me?

See this person is on others's good side and I never was.

You know what else I caught?

This person is accepted by lesser individuals but told she doesn't have to talk to them while they threaten me to talk to them.

What I'm Mad About Otherwise

Just the way the other person coasts by taking all the esteem I earned and getting mad if I don't let her have it.

In general that the person coasts with others, like Chloe Grace Moretz in Dark Shadows just saying one thing and it being a big deal just cuz she said it.

Hello?

Fine.  I also am a normal girl who's not queer.  Do I not fit into either category?

I don't think all these people's thinking are above mine.  Why is this girl told she is so perfect?  It's like a detriment to other people who are told the opposite of themselves.

You're still trapping my ability to concentrate.

Why not leave me be rather than doing weird things like at the Oscars?

I can't quite put my finger -- yea, I don't think just that 1 younger girl is interested in having a good life.

Lookie this person was just bad.  I wasn't doing anything and was attacked and provoked to simply have a curse word come up cuz you keep flooding me with petty insults.

I don't know what's wrong with this person.  If I could lose weight again from pills, I would be thin again.  They have that tacky grin and those beady (like beady as in strong and visible) eyes.  That bemused, separated look like "I have to be the one felt up for" and while I just make fun of you like you want that."  Well, I don't, I don't do that and don't do certain things with those people.  Would I like to be friends?  I dunno!  Who wouldn't?

Don't play this out like it's big for the other person.  It's about their features but what other people puppet her to do, like a puppet on strings or what have you??  :/

Is this even appropriate.  What are you hoping to gain?  Apparently, people will all start to check in but not realize what's too late to do.

I have other problems.  People are supporting mean friends just because I got lonely and spammed them when they stopped being my friend it seemed like.  I look around in the world and it's about their mis-relationship with me.

If 1 Related Thing Makes Me Angry Related to Something of Someone's

it would be the people tracking me down keeping me from something just for hitting my sofa 1 week.  YOU WERE MEAN TO ME AND HAVE NO RIGHT TO KEEP ME FROM DOING WHAT I WANT IN PRIVATE.

Some people don't make themselves useful online.  Fine, act it up in real life, if possible.

Other People: "I guess all the attention just came naturally."

I can see you just looking on everything wrong on this blog I made for the public access.  You wish.

You have your diary, here's mine.

Why don't you talk to this person?

So, something is wrong and we all know it's sin.

Fame Babies

Use them as a racist tool.

I'm not fighting.  This is just what's happening and I'm trying to not insult the person.

Are you forgetting what the top of my blog says?  These are thoughts that everyone has who meets me.  I'm not posting this for someone famous.

So, I'm dumped by all, whilst others gain what I had?

What's there to even talk about?  This person is a pin cushion for personal pleasure.

}:  WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF US

Wow, this person has people guarding her taking all the things of the nature that I earned.  Well, I am too disgusted to even want them back.  You should not bore into my head that I'm a bad person and put up with your worrying I need to be punished.  I did not grow up all punished.  I was good.  What did I do, now?  Something from 15 years ago?

I see you're watching me.

Question

Disclaimer: The caps are not a threat/shouting..

WHY DOES THiS OTHER PERSON JUST COAST ALONG

Why can't other people ever have fun, too??

I can see this person all giddy like my cousin about being the youngest.  What is their unusually close company for now?

Picking on me.

So, why is this person even posting this stuff?  No one probably does anything with that.  I'm not the one in trouble while my whole life I was considered the best behaved.  What did I do?  I don't like people roughing me around like they're all that.

How do I solve my problems if every time I write down something, something else happens?