Don't listen to my dad when

he doesn't know what he's doing!

ALL YOU DO IS SIT THERE AND GET MAD AT ME

sent my parents an e-mail

and texts

hoping things were well this evening..

If Ellen thinks she can punish people who don't wanna be then she has a problem.  That's not socially acceptable.  Why?  No one does that to adults.  Only their own children.

Pray for my dad, he seemed upset about it even after the movie. I don't know what to do about that. I think he ruined my vision in how he drove. I just hope he had an okay time. I asked him about his movie and stuff.

Problems

I keep getting the idea of Ellen saying only me when I say something I'm looking up all tacky to her like I should care with a big lump of a stomach.. in a robe!  What you think I am, some n*****?

Well, I do have a story.  The story is I can do what I want without losing things in my life.  I'm trying to talk.  I didn't violate you!  I never started anything.  If I wanna take control of my environment, I can.  I could have gotten security on my side.  Don't you dare sass me back.  I couldn't keep it up cuz too many peope were s****ing at me.  Well, here I got you all back for the same thing "in one fair swoop."

Stop acting like I'm hysterical!

You did it.

They said someone else is being problematic, too.

My dad is being mean.

I stated down people at Disney, as well.  Not always the absolute best choice.

Some people were bothering me and I said to leave me alone.. too bad?  I wanted to mess with the police @ that.  They won't stop shuffling around me.  I was clearing my throat on the bus before.  Some people are making me look around.

You're the one who doesn't get no.  No, I'm not gonna sit here and be the only one in the most trouble.

So, basically this person unfortunately.. wants to just sit there and cross their eyes at you saying, "I know someone's got what I want and I'm the only one who wants it and now."  What ya'll thinkin'?  This an improvement to your nastiness??..

Why not just forget about lies like that, that only one person can be happy.. and make people happy?  It would make me happy.

Anything to Do?

Why should I be in trouble?  Lotta people curse for no reason.

Yes, I wanted you to be happy, but our conversation gets real for some reason.  I don't mind.  I feel people get more mad at me for the same thing others think.

About Getting Mad

Do you wanna be r****?  Would you get in trouble for cursing and being upset then?  So, being attacked emotionally doesn't happen?   I feel a bit affected.. esp. now.  If you keep affecting someone affected..  I mean how irritating were my feelings?  They were just me getting a signal to define my mood.

Specific Thing..

I thought I said something nice.  I tried to disclaim any other thoughts.

Okay, I saw someone try to irritate me about not being perfect.  They had a smug or bemused look.  They were basically trying to say something it seemed they'd claim not.  If they claim not, then what was their problem if they had one?

It was fine.  I just felt I was getting 2 different messages..

To Them That Listen to Talking About Their Actions and Deeds

You seem to have dug into my writing in the wrong way.  You wanna make sure you're on top of me.  Some of you are like spoiled brats in ways.  You are jealous of me.

What?

Apology.  I was thinking of a bad word and trying to think of other things instead.  I understand if you don't click with me, anymore.