Disagreement

Someone is being more disagreeable with me, like she has something to get back at.  I said not to fight with me.

Issues of The Day

Before I go off and shower, I thought I'd leave the bait like animal who sits and waits for its prey!

My dream would be that people would possibly and and talk to me, but I know this gets out and people I know can read it and might think about it for when they see me.

Okay, 1st off, I'm not up for believing I am in trouble and am not sure what's going on.  I do know that I cursed about the noises in my room, but a lotta people curse people out even.

I'm sorry about the complaining about someone.  I'll try and not have that happen with anyone, no debating or anything.  :/  Lotta other people have their say and the other has no strength to come back.  People just attack me for no reason.  They're all vague and pointing fingers around in the air.

I got wind of a yes or no from someone gyping me to look silly even talking about it.  I will not live in a non-Democracy with this person risen to the top up to no good.  See, can't I say that and not have someone take it the wrong way?  What I mean is I don't need to be told I'm not all that and that supposedly I am now like everyone else when I don't wanna be.  I know it's not good to bring up those things, but here it is.  Maybe, this is just rubbish.  I can't say nothing has been happening.  It should not get in the way of my life, wondering if mentioning it in some way possible is okay.  I can't make it seem all positive, and obviously neither can that person.

What else?  My dad started driving to bonk my head on the way home.  My speech was slurred after that.  Um..  My dad never does that.

Yea, so my mom has been seeming like upset I made her sick.  I think Orlando is the ultimate cause.

Um.. Sometimes, we think of funny things that make you think of things that you should not think just because of it.

About the car, someone else was in on it with my dad, so I don't know.  It's probably a lotta people.

Also, why is my relationship off and on about someone else, like something that doesn't need to happen?  I don't find this person to be totally with it.  They seem a bit weird.  More specifically, I find them other things I cannot describe.  I posted something on my Facebook I can't find.  I remember kinda what it was.  I don't know if it's worth trying to explain.  I'm upset I can't find it.  Well, the person deleted it.  I can't find it.  She is being kinda unfriendly now because others made her.  Now, that is not acceptable at all.  What you think I am?  I did find this person is trying to keep others from getting attention and for no good reason.  Someone else may do this, but still same opinion.  Why do I get the feeling people wanna play a game and say I'm insignificant and puny?  I just try to be nice, but this person is trashing my dignity and reputation.  I never started anything with this person.  This person is becoming an adult.  I don't mind if she has nothing to do with me for her own decision and good.  I don't like other people totally cancelling out to the point that it's bad stuff against me, like "I'm getting attention that way."  I see people are watching out to make sure everything she does can be better than me and that I become worse.  Apparently, however, it's hard and they're having trouble.  I mean, being snide is not nice.  It's not right to chase me down like that.  Like to make sure I become bad and sad when I try not to already even.  That's not what's going on.  Everyone is different, and there are ways you could be just like me but better, maybe, without bothering me.  See, you don't even wanna be like me.

Well, for now that seems to suffice.  I care about everyone and I care about people in need, as well.  I will try to alter my life to become more aware of what I can be aware of, which will lead to other things.

If you want attention, reach for your dreams.  We all can try and figure something out where we win.

You say you have to be mean to me?  Why are these "accidents" coming to light in regularity?

My Reaction

I was sad and upset and don't really wanna hear from untamed people what they think of the word I thought of someone used.  They were messing with my mind, like I couldn't ignore it.  Sure, you can reassure someone else that they are loved, not really a punishment and I don't need one..

Also, I am not the one that needs older women in my life pretending to be my disciplinarian "mom.."

I know you like a check in.

2 things.

I thought of a word someone used, and my mom wants to mess with our relationship with a creative excuse.  I don't even care about that word.  She was messing up my thoughts and tho she fed it to me too I learned not to go with bad thoughts and to relax outta fighting.

I was upset at someone for hurting me for fear they will be hurt by people who just hurt people.  I don't mean it, but I detest the situation and am trying to ignore it.

So, no, I do not want for either thing to have happened and hope things don't happen like this in the future.

Why don't you be nice to other people yourself, too?  I mean go out of  your way to actually talk to them yourself, too?  I don't know you are claiming to make fun of someone.  Like they need friends.  Is it serious?  They are not totally mean people..

I think I am being made fun of for how old my dad is.  They think it means they can "treat me like s***."

IMDb - The Soapbox

Does anyone ever bother you?

All the time. They make fun of my relationships, like I have any, how immature. Strangers, some people who came into my life/Facebook.. People just spot me out and I get sent some secret messages, somehow.

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Also, there are people watching me in my room controlling how the computer loads to send nasty secret messages.

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These people controlling when things on my computer load to send specific messages somehow are really ridiculous.  They "won't shut up."

They keep making me think of bad things as reminders.