Some people have lost my trust, who I don't know.  I'm getting insulting messages to block constantly now from these people, the way things on my computer load sends messages.

 My map keeps blacking out.

How do you want me to deal with this or not deal with this?  You are wrong.

I know you're still there doing that.

This person keeps messing with me and threatening me within the experiment.  Playing around, something like a threat.  Just to punish me for cursing at being mean to me.  If you can't stand cursing, you should forget about it or tell me.

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They think they can treat me like an animal for someone.

Problem

I liked someone from Australia and I have 2 friends on Facebook I've talked to more than usual unusually from there who are not like that.

and I don't wanna be mad at you

See, I already figured I was not mad at that girl.

Well

I found out the mystery that if you assert yourself to a certain person they will do something adverse to fill in the gap.

I don't want that in my life.  Someone told my mom to get  upset with my dad in dire straights of lies.. oh well?  We'll see how anyone feels about that.  Shouldn't it be for my mom to decide?

You can't sit there and affect my life and punish me and hurt my relationships.  We don't care about that stuff, no one does!  I'll post my feelings here rather than explode in life.  I'll try to forget important things like this.  I don't wanna be forced to post about stuff just to post about it and don't plan on it.

You might think that was right.  Maybe, it was.  It didn't seem like the best idea.  You probably just brush off that people are s***.  Are you Hitler of the Apes?

I'm sorry if this offended anyone and if it reached and hurt anyone innocent.  Let's leave it at that.  I had a thought cycle, as I always do.  I didn't violate you.

You want to take me back?

I am so sorry I was mad.  I could not think straight.  You think so?  I'm getting better, but I is who I is.

I wonder if aliens are watching me..

Apology

My relationships may be imperfect, but it seems they claim I always have something to lose.

You've already distanced yourselves from me.  You've turned innocent people against me to do foolish things.  People who live in LA are contradictory.  You shouldn't just not listen to me thinking you're actually there for me.  Not listen to me as in thinking you're not too chicken about my dad when you are and that's why there's no reason to listen to anyone like that.. and btw you've gone and done other things than claim it's my dad in your way to being nice to me.  Why does that sound so tacky?  This is about people in general.  You think you don't listen to me but are there for me but have to give me a heart attack daily for asserting my feelings on a blog.

Why is my dad going all pleasured getting me in trouble when I didn't do anything?  He won't stop keeping a grudge on me, like I'm a murderer of someone important to him.

Apology

If I offended anyone with what I said behind their backs but I didn't mean anything to them like to their face.  I was just sad..  I really am not an all the time sarcastic person...

Why I Came Out

I realized I could not go around grunting at myself and wanted to fix these problems.

I don't know what it means other than I say no if I don't know who said what in what way.  I can forgive some people, but my life is really lame.

I think I need to address this.  If a certain person who is adament I don't ever get mad at them, neither, I mean I live with what the other person says, too.  I don't need a circle of punishments orchestrated by my dad's hormones.  He claims it's not him.  WHO IS IT?

STOP IT

THEY SAID I DESERVE THE PUNISHMENT, THE WEIRD MESSAGES GOING ALONG WITH THE ACTION

Can't you even figure out if someone done it?

LOOK I DUNNO WHO YOU ARE BUT I DON'T NEED PUNISHMENT

I see my dad self-satisfied.  Don't you dare treat me like he does.

How dare I? How dare anyone to me.

I think it was a general decision and some people might not like it.  Then, let's just say I feel really bad.  I don't want your help, tho..

What is this all for Johnny Depp and this girl?

Problem

I don't want something big to happen cuza your problems with me this morning.  I believe you made one.

I see someone is afraid of me getting too much.  My old relaxed approval is not one thing you've brought into my life.  I am not a problem, either way.

I am not gonna put up with all this nonsense from various sources.  I come out and try to be nice, and my dad is always at me.  My mom follows along like she has to in triumph.  My parents don't even act like my parents, anymore.  If something bothers me, you just do it again.

I'm just talking, as opposed to being silent and brooding.  Notice I'm not flat out getting mad?  I would if I was.

Problem

They are loading pictures on the makeover hypnotically.

I see people playing around doing disgusting things with their bodies like wearing glasses all for this mean person for no resaon and flashing it in my face.

Upset

My dad was more talkative when I was more upset.

I don't wanna be got at for new stuff, too.

I thought of how people created the idea that this person is over me, and my parents were all smug about it, so I thought why not h*** the person who done it.. but that's like h***ing me, not injuring.  That's not what I even meant.  I do not accept this bullying, tho.  I do not accept that I used to be respected but now am not!

Look, I warned my parents to stop the secret messages.

This person is messed up and doesn't do anyone any good.  I don't see the result.

Maybe, they've said what they've needed and wanted to say.  They don't answer questions.

Quit treating me like you own me.

I'm not fascinated by your clues.

My dad wasn't even supposed to be a part of my life.  I don't even see my parents and they just want me on meds and are mean.

Upset

My dad is just trying to be mean to me and making pizza rather than letting me eat something else.  He's making it from taco shells.

Look, why are you even talking to me?  Is it all for a certain person?

I'm not dealing with inconveniences in my life for them, like putting someone before me and when I talk about it you all get creepy and mad at me all the time in private.

I pretty much got this.

You old fogies are simple-minded dwellers and think you spotted out sin in me.

This person is using me to say that something in their life is irritatingly imperfect.  I've been nice, but they just want the attention I got and not me.

I think a lotta people are important.  I take a stand against most people.  I mean, wasn't my life about me before?  Huh?  Maybe, my relationships are traitors.  I can find people under the radar who might be interesting.

Interestingly, this other person also wants everything to be about them.  I just don't want it to be like "Oh, okay, I don't deserve to be treated like I'm worth anything at all every time someone doesn't like what I do."  What's sad is it's coming into play in other opportunities for little things.  This person is not a part of me anymore than they are a part of just anyone else.  I don't mind at all if other people get attention and stuff.  I just get insulting messages concerning them.  Insulting to me, like I think maybe I deserve to be treated with respect and then I don't get it and they are used as a tool for that, like I was a really good person before and everyone just got all jealous and tore it down.

Seriously, these people won't stop bothering me, loading the page on the computer so it gives an insulting secret message emotionally.  Yes, they are putting someone before me and it's for a reason that doesn't exist but makes me feel guilty every day.  Who else does this?

No, I don't see why this person should be hurting me.  I know I was mad and cursed, but it wasn't usually directed at anyone originally.  Plus, a lotta people seem to have done that.  I was the one being wronged.

Glitch

Sometimes when I look something up or something, the waiting symbol won't go away even if I click X.

So, you're just sitting there making all the things I enjoy in life for someone else and pretending to be upset about it each time.