I did notice people in Orlando do these things, get upset for no reason.

So, I am trying to accept what my parents do for others in how they act at home, but I'm alone now.  I decided but didn't really seem to find anything to do with it myself.  I thought about the real life situation.  It seemed awkward and not right in some ways.

Sorry.

Problem

They keep loading the computer racistly and like they're all that, like "at a quick moment" all the time or something or a perky delay.

I know you done wrong.

I can almost sense the pleasure of this punishing me going around.

I came on here to disclaim my fate.

(Disclaimer: These are how my thoughts came out.  Sorry they are not all pleasant terminology.)

Some things made me upset, but I know I'm supposed to not be ultimately upset.  I figured it was my parents's fault, too, but like it was and it wasn't, which is saddening it means people I like have to be mean to me .. -like- you know the saying "to feel cool" or "popular" seems the thing going around wasting my life away all these people.

I don't remember what my dad did.  Something's up, tho.

My mom upset me, and I just reacted to myself like.  She said something to me for not being in a perfect situation even I think.  She's starting to act snobbish when I come home.  I think someone told everyone they can't really talk to me.  How selfish and false is that?  No one cares how you feel about being mean to me and hiding it by making it look like I started it.

There's no anyone I know coming in my life and telling me how close I can't get to people outside'a my fam!

Sorry, I'd like to stay positive, but it'll take me another mental reboot I see to have a change of heart.

So what if "I wish I didn't do it?"  Why sit there and just pick at me for not being perfect?  That's a mean thing to suggest to me.

I don't feel relaxed and ready for the night.  Why am I getting mean messages from my parents etc. all the time?  I just came here to disclaim with my true feelings.. whatever that might be.. and I realized something else someone did.  They think if I talk how they feel is snooty, "I gave in."  I ain't interested in that!!  You can't tell me what team I'm on.

I'm just talking, not being "obviously" sarcastic at all.  What did I say.. "no one cares" about you being mean to me and you can't tell me what I think.  Well, I get mean vibes from people every day, and I ain't gonna take it.  No one can tell me what I think and what I am.

There, did I break the Jenga board.

I have a right to complain, especially with them acting inappropriate around me and rubbing in things I don't like.

It's not so much if you stop as if you can't stop now and think I did something.

So, what it was was I said someone was selfish to coordinate taking away my relationships like relationships don't matter.  They act like I'm unpresentable, maybe even just from being fat and too poor for nice clothes.  We don't wear dresses, these days.  They won't leave me alone for all these things.  Maybe, you just made me submit into ugliness.  Learn to live with your mistake.  So, this is what brings a smile to your face that you did it and I didn't.

I do not mean to be mean, I felt like I lost it.  I read it back a few times.

Oh, and about the other people.  I don't know why, I just wanted to get away and not talk about it.  I will try to ignore it.  I was thinking, how can I ignore something like that?

Guess I should try to ignore..

..I'm not so cool tho on doing these things that supposedly could be however long.

Sorry if I said anything.

So, they are pretty much harmful to me and won't leave me alone all the time.  So it seems.  I mean, thruout the day at least.

They've been doing it for a long time.  My dad is so annoying, too.  I have a right to state that.  Mean, hurtful..

You all and my dad keep trapping me and ruining my life.

I had to make my way on here to say I didn't submit to someone, and now people are pestering me that they are.  Also, my dad was being to close and thinks he "did it."

Problem

They won't stop bugging me pretending to be a certain person and making up things.

Apology

Sorry, I just get mad when my life is overturned by something small when it probably does not matter like that.  I don't know how to rephrase some things sometimes.  Maybe, I'm not all awake and seeing things.  I am being bothered, that's for sure.

These people are messed up, keep acting weird like they are a certain person which isn't nice.  Like making that person seem weird and acting like it.  I don't think I should take this as true.

My forehead is really bothering me.  I feel so much gravity on it

How Nasty

My dad.  I heard a secret message saying, "What do you want [some person] boxed up in ***?"  or, "What do you want for that.."

I said we don't want you changing up civilization for your ways.  My dad, he just got home and I feel my forehead thick in a bad, dorky way.  How perverted and pathetic.

I figured out what I meant.

I like someone, but they are disfiguring their image and saying I like it like that, confusing me.  I might like to be like other people in that way, but they are rubbing it in.  Sorry, but I really like didn't know what to do.

Why I'm Upset

I'm just upset I said something that made them get picky to me.  I was kinda in a weird mood, as usual, so I guess it's hard to change.  I don't submit myself to these people's ways.

New Video of Me Talking

Just So You Know

2 people used to be nice to me before I thought or said some things and now they either don't show themselves up or maybe finally got tired of paying attention to me tho seem mad too.  They didn't make a reservation in advance saying what they did and didn't like people doing.  I don't want you all to make my life bad.  I feel notorious and revealed and stuff.

Someone said I couldn't say they were mean to me and have fun with other people.  They think I deserve to be mistreated.  For cursing that they put noises in my room.  But why should that matter?

Why you gotta act like I did something wrong by torturing me to get a "negative response?"  Why you so picky about what I say, anyway?  I don't mean anything bad.

But I don't like this and know you're just punishing me or really incompetent.  They're picking on me while I post here.  They can see me in my room.  Why don't you deal with this?  I deserve to be at peace.

I don't care about your agreement, you hurt me again today.  What is wrong with you people?  You keep treating me like I'm not a normal person, too, and have to deal with this.

Stop attacking me with someone I'm supposed to pay special respect to, VooDoo.

Stop telling me suggestive things to stimulate me using the identity of a real person.  I don't care if my dad says I have to talk to someone I don't like as much, how else you wanna say it, criminal??  In a way I don't like and when I don't want that to be a key person in the way of my life by bothering me in my room.

Upset

Someone thinks my possible future babies should be affected badly.  They did it on someone else's "so they say."

Really Upset

Someone stopped posting normally after I thought of a joke cuz I was mad and it just seemed funny and to make sense.  It's rather suggestive and self-afflicting.  I loved his posts..

So

What was the point of the night?

Also, they are imprinting things on me like they have to happen.  I can't really keep up.

cont.

They are going on!

Problem

They are still being mean.  They said looking down at my possible future daughter is "hypnotized."  I don't want that lodged in my head.

More Problems

The light was on late, too.

cont.

like a younger sister or future daughter!

Problem

They said I'd be that person I said I don't wanna be like in gymnastics, and I started at 1 3/4 til 8.

Weird

No one ever comes out and does the dishes like that.

So..

..I had to put in my ear plugs.

More

Someone is smashing dishes in the kitchen.

Now what?

Someone outside was sending me a message that I said something.  No, I was not trying to annoy anyone.  I just was reporting cuz it made me feel uncomfortable.  They keep acting like I need to be punished and making me feel indecent.  How do I know who sent the message?

Problem

They keep making me feel like I'm bad and "can't have 'what I want.'"  Like it's crazy.  Crazy to want something, a certain something, without good reason.

Irritated

I think they are extending the experiment to next door picking at me for something.  I hear their vent went on just now..  They are always outside to stimulate me when I go out.

cont.

"I know saying I don't wanna be like someone 'magically' means I will be more like them," but I don't wanna totally honestly be like that person.  They've been suggesting it a lot and in ways I don't like, and it seems they could do it.

Apology

I had a panic attack and didn't know what else to say nor if it were really bad.  About not wanting to be someone other than myself.  It's what I mean, I just can't figure out how else to say it.  Maybe, it takes too much time to figure out.  Anyway, I realized they said it inappropriately.  They said they wanted a game.  I feel a game going on.  Um.. I dunno, I don't like that I was put on the spot and inappropriately.

cont.

They keep saying bad things using this person.  It is not nice to the person.

cont.

And I had "missed a spot" not saving something..