They messed up my drawing/writing things.

When I said small, shoulda said babyish.  Sorry..

They had someone say in a tacky small way, "You can NEVA perform with him."

There's always that danger in me.  What to do?

My dad is inflicting bad feelings in me.  They made me think of a bad word.  He asked how long something takes in symbol of waiting for a no because of them, because of him, I'm stuck with him as having been in my life like that.

I'm sorry you saw me vicious, but you might see me get upset again.  I was just upset at having to report all these things and was also confused as to solving the original problem of everyone else saying people deserve d**** for what they did.  Are you afraid I'd go down that route?  I'm not.  I just felt offended and the thought came up.  Maybe, I shouldn't have said I meant it.  I did temper the idea and do it on myself.  I dunno what to do.  I can't just go around never thinking of anything that isn't just "happy happy joy joy."  This is where some of you people out there have a real problem.  This is what happened.  It's like I said later, something came up and the negativity made me feel at ease tho I didn't mean it, was worthless.  Just like a settling thought ot end.  Sorry!  I did ask for help..

saying it's like my dad.. I don't want him in my life like that

Now, they're dissing the supposed kids they're not supposed to be pretending.

These messages aren't stopping.  I didn't want my dad involved with someone who doesn't even like me pretending I have kids.  If someone else wants my mom to pretend they have kids is up to them.

I showed my parents my clean room and my dad coughed and touched my Nutcracker claiming he needed to switch something in the garage.

The name implies someone I will remember, the ice cream cone, for a long time.  That's very hurtful.  I still stand by that I was been mean to and needed a release with others not just them doing it and not me.

You may be in danger if you listen to my dad and are mean to me.

I don't mean permanent estrangement, just in general.  That's how it was.  Things were better off that way in most ways.

My dad shouldn't even be in my life again.  He's being awfully mean with it.

Problem

My dad won't stop insulting in secret message, making sounds sound like words.

When will he and the people experimenting on me and watching me get it .. get what?  Something like that no one cares about your "important" insults.

I don't wanna be the loser with these mean people talking to me via people watching me in my room while the rest of the people I see all don't do it and think they're all that like I was.

I keep getting strangers who seem to communicate with people experimenting on me.  The 1st person who added me on this Google account is holding an ice cream cone like someone else was trying to look like someone but sending a mean message.  It made me think of something funny I think other people liked.  I was reluctant to put in this excessing effort to explain what happened to me.  It upsets me who mighta done these things, like I'm not important and someone else is more important in a strange way.  I dunno what was strange about it.  I think it's a Middle Eastern person, too.  I think it's the fact that it's a normal person involved and it's the only person in my Google circle.  I feel made fun of.  So what if I thought of something funny when someone was mean anyway?  It seemed like it needed to get out and other people do it, not to you, but between us!  I've even said that at the top of this blog.  I don't mean to be mean, but sometimes I'm not about some things.  I was worried why it seemed to make sense.  I just am getting irritated at anything from the experiment, preventing me from succeeding probably due to my dad.  I don't like how I am being held trapped by these mean people.  I don't have any privacy.  They'll start clicking.  Good for you.  I wonder if you "can't take a joke."  I dunno, I just noticed something and needed it because it was so mean.  I don't really get it.  It's not the fact that it's unsettling that makes me upset.  I just heard a noise, too.  I feel that my dad is making it so I can't function.  Also, we all need a little joke and it was not for you.  So, see if anyone can figure that out, a better alternative?  Don't you laugh at me a lot?  You do wrong things to me.  I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but I think maybe they are looking for too much pity from me.  So, I was already sorry and played the joke on myself.  Other people joke about d**** and get away with it.  It was more how I saw the mistake part.  It wasn't to hurt a tender spot or something.  I feel something bad coming on.  People just judge me and hurt me.  What's wrong now?  Is it something from the past?  Did you want an explanation?  I just am kinda fed up, maybe with this person..  So, I am sorry if anything was wrong.  Something wrong was done to me.  I was merely dealing with it.  I just heard another noise that says I can't have my race, if it's French part of it..  Look, I'm not listening to this.  I don't need to say it over and over again.  I'll post this somewhere.  As I was saying, it was not intended to hurt anyone and they were not who the release was for, but sorry and if anyone can fix it would be nice.  I thought that when I thought that.  Sorry!

How do you feel about k***ing people

just to annoy me?

I am sorry I must have offended suggesting people believed someone k***ed people.

They're being testy to me now about k***ing another old person.

You are bad, did you know that?  You have no right to do this to me.

Quit lying, I can say that this person has been creeping me out or others saying that people secretly d** for them, whoever had them do it.  These deaths in Hollywood are suspicious.  Something must be going on.

I am not a waste.  You can't say I grew up trasing my life.  You're just being sarcastic.  You threw away my life, teachers and my parents.  You made school worthless, and your kids are doing worthless things to me and saying I started this and I started that.

I just came to apologize, not collect you never ceasing unfairness to me cuz you're just racist and irratical.

Don't tell me I did anything.  They just blurted out a date, too.  What if I thought of it then?  This never happened before.  You said that to think it on that date.

Quit pushing me over and manipulating my life.  You've all done some bad things to me and apparently others.  You're not there for me.  No one is.  I'm stuck with what I don't like and people acting all warbly and unsure around me all the time making me feel bad, interfering my life with my crazy dad.  Leave him alone.  I don't know why he changes from good to bad.  This has gotta stop.

I posted this to ask what people feel about like having old people die at a certain time to send a message.  Also, the deaths in Hollywood.  It's like they all moved to some secret place or with aliens.  I'm not quitting this world.

I thought you just cared what my dad said?  No one cares!

Wow, the truth must have really burst your bubble.

They are marring my body by tapping in.

We shouldn't do anything for this person cuz it's all about being against me like she's all that.

Stop nagging at me all day.

They are being vicious and forceful.  How pathetic.  That person is involved.

Stop saying I'm attacking.

Just lying it's not you.

This person is a mad attacker.

Is anyone out there?  Can you help me?  This person is superstitiously insane.

Quit getting at me for stuff that has an explanation.  Just quit ruining my life!

Oh, you see a real insect?  Well, I don't.

cont.

bit that this person won't stop insecting in my life.

Problem

This person won't stop messing with me.

They want to pretend someone I like can't hug me.  I don't like that kinda stuff, neither, tho.

OK, this is big.

Someone who started something with me is acting meanly back like I did something I shouldn't do.

You know what really bothered me.

My dad seemed mad, or I just guessed he was.. I think I guessed right.  :o

So, I am so sorry for my "disordered" judgements in speaking about my dad and hope that things are well.