They made me think of my eyes when talking about makeup, my dad.

How disgusting, don't fight with me.

My parents are acting weird and want me to thinl of the same thing when I go to the bathroom when I didn't do anything wrong.  Other things are coming to mind, as well.  This didn't happen before a few years ago.

It seems like dark majority Caucasians/white people are h**** for s**.

Is s** ever offensive to someone else who doesn't have it?

So, is this person h****?  No offense and I need not say more about it, at least not right now at this moment.

Problem

Why is Bella the middle of a catfight of Ellen admittingly looking for someone to replace the success of others?

Wait a minute!

I'm the one who had a college debt, and you're the ones who relocated so I have to fly on vacation.

You can't make me unhealthy because school is impossible.  I needed those walks.  They might have been excessive seeming in your opinion, but I seemed to have no time and was only taking general studies.  It was over before it began.  Someone should have told me to withdraw because I was wondering if I'd get anything out of it.  Also, I was in the experiment.  You never accepted that so you can roll over and press the button on the alarm clock to not go off.  I'm not trying to be mean..  Don't assume I'm sarcastic in an evil way.  Also, I did ballet and things were going good there in some ways.  That was my minor.  I don't know why honors is easier!  What is wrong with the school systems in Louisiana!!  Should I have been at LSU in Baton Rouge steada New Orleans??  I'm bout to go back up north once I complete the AA in the Common Curriculum, "AA - General Studies."  Maybe.

So, the reason the experiment got in the way was cuz I was programmed for a break and a nice life and then it wasn't there, a world without work.  You threw me off my singing and music studies with the experiment!!!!

I'm not yelling..

Why are they doing things that need to be talked about around every corner?  That'll just make curse words come to mind.

I told my dad who I was talking about on this Problems Blog, but it wasn't as eloquent as here, another reason to have a blog and not just talk in person.  :o

What I Am Thought As

My dad thought I was bad cuza flunking college - now whose fault is that?  The schools I went to.  I was the Valedictorian in 8th grade and kept a 4.0 most of high school..

I'm not trying to be violent.  I may have made some "good" mistakes, as in better than I used to be.  I might just keep seeking help, like this.  I'm establishing more websites and categorical features.

Issue

Why would anyone say I did not make an attempt to be social?  You must harbor some prejudice that needs to be taken back from my life.

After I said they can't go in and affect my life, they went in and said I could not have fun with the people watching me.  I just said you can't come in my life and trim the good things off every once in awhile for no real good reason.

It is vague what they really just did, but I don't think I wanna ever think about such a waste as this.  I'm not being mean saying the word "waste" and it is not a curse word nor buzz word.

Regarding me being upset specifically, you can't take away things from me, a good woman at age 28.  All I did was say something to counter the mean treatment.  I am not listening to you like you're the boss.  You're barely a part of my life and can't just come in at your own convenience to hurt me emotionally and socially.  I'm not letting that happen.  I don't wanna fight you.  I just want this to stop.  These people keep talking to me in private, I know, and who knows what my dad will get involved in.  I don't like what he did.

You're the one who attacked, and I think you're something like punished yourself.  I didn't punish you, but you accept punishment from people other than me.  I will not let things slide by like this on some days.  My life is on a strict moral regiment.  It'll be over before I know it, which must be partially happy news for you.  Who knows, maybe ya'll even think it should end soon.  That's the feeling I got from my dad, who's being like a guy who doesn't practice self-control in social life in secret, like you can't say oh he did this or that.  He does it in secret message.

This is getting a bit painstaking if I have to talk about anything else much longer.

Maybe, I feared for the wrong person on the wrong side at the wrong time?  I guess my dad is a danger and you were trying to deflect that.  He has no right to pretend to punish me and acting like he didn't, like acting threateningly on a whim that I can't visit relatives up north.  I know if I listened, he'd go more on a tangent telling me what to do when he can't.  I wanted to go up north with him a few times but chickened out.  He didn't force me to go, tho, nor say then that anything was wrong.  You know, he almost pushed his oldest younger sister off a counter or table or something when she was a baby.  I feel iffy about if she thinks I'm being a good person in the secret messages via the experiment where people watch me and talk to me with little noises in my room and things.

OK, I'll just talk about it.

I notice you think you can come in my life and have people beat me for you to take away the things I like as a punishment when that isn't right, I'm too old for that, and I didn't do anyththing.

They won't stop.  It's one thing after another.  I don't care how mad you are.  Deal with it.

Someone is turning everyone against me without me having done anything to deserve that.  You don't "really know" what I'm doing.

They attacked me and are getting back at me, like they're fighting.  Problems happen all the time.  How is this fair to me to clog up my life like this and make up things about what I really meant and when I take back things that seem to not have the desired effect or something?

I just don't see what's so fun about holding onto something that didn't happen.

Why is me saying this a deterrent?

Why do you people think you can tell me what to think and mess up and make me think of things you said you don't want me to think about?  The thought already reached me!

I think someone is trying to act like I'm a kid and they can punish me by poking mean fun at me.  Why would this happen?  And with such a respectable, good-willed person?  Perhaps, since it's not seemingly about you or it's not, you do not agree they are respectable.