I need help.  I'm tired of seeing someone on Twitter every day being pushy and shovy and agreeing I should be punished.  I get this awful feeling.  I just can't stand it.  No one has a reason to be mean to me like that!

So what if someone sent me torturing my kids as a message while I watched the Academy Awards live?  I can think of being mad if I want.  It just happens!  I don't even care!

Problem

I don't want my tacky Gramma in my life telling me only I need to be punished, sending messages via my dad and causing my body to feel harm via noises.  I don't care how powerful they are.  They don't do other things they could.

I was ridiculous.  I feel better after sleeping and other things.

Sorry

I am trying to practice more reasonable respect.

I was upset about being made fun of for my supper by my parents and got upset briefly on the inside.  I'll try to fix myself.  You don't have to pay attention to me when you don't want, of course, or if you don't.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Bad Night Now

Maybe, I was up later.

People both experimenting on me and attacking me as people secretly is happening.

It's going downhill, more things happen every day.

I see my dad clomp into the room with his act.

The love got taken away. I just disagree with things, like that I can't enjoy Frozen..

I get irritated by people and feel my life is just thrown away, maybe cuza my intruding dad messing up every day! I'm tired of his attitude. I bet he and his mom gave my mom cancer. Maybe an aunt, too, the older one. I gotta ask. Usually, they were nice to me. They are twisted liars, the lotta 'em. They think I'm bad for turning them in.

I try to feel emotion, but people take it away! I didn't ask for it. 

I'm left po'.

OK, you want me as the bad one.  Ain't gonna happen.  I know the answer.  You're all mostly wrong.

Why do you even have to do those things?  I don't wanna be in trouble cuz there's nothing to do.

I DON'T WANNA HEAR OF THIS

Are you all slowly turning on me in fear of my dad?  I said not to do that.  None of what you all do makes sense.

SO WHAT IF A BAD WORD OR ACTION HAPPENS IN MY HEAD THIS HAPPENS TO EVERYONE GET OFF MAH BACK

Put it this way.  I don't seem to have anyone much less my own life.

You all should not be acting like this to me.  I could get a physical problem.

STOP ACTING ALL INNOCENT

These people are lackadaisical and don't know what they're up to and have listened to nonsense.

I will not listen to my dad and part of his bemused "family.."

I can't do any of this to you.

WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM

Quit it.  You got nothing on me.

You're not gonna stop huh?  Well it's too late now.

You gonna stop fighting me?  This is illegal.  I may tell my therapist more about this see if she gets it.  I could call the police about the computer thing..

I don't believe I deserve to be punished.  I am too old.  I don't want this sneaky treatment.  I'm gonna tell my therapist.  Also, I didn't do anything wrong altogether.  Anyway, you did.

I don't want your fighting.  This other person and people it's obvious are s***ing up for the wrong reasons.

Well, I figured one thing out.  I don't like people playing around with me especially in the wrong way.

I did get mad on teh inside and had a cutting thought, you know the cutoff.  I just really don't wanna be blasted at about this oh so conveniently, literally messing into my life for something they did you think I could not match and do, like I'm not even allowed to deny this.  You all are too judgmental.  It's not perfectionism.

Apology

Something made me upset and I do not accept it.

I will not accept this treatment of anything of that nature.