Game?

Not to say something?  I didn't say it.

Stop it.

I don't want to feel I did anything wrong.

WAH!

What if I hurt my mom?  She was probably pretending.

Prayers....

I was nice, but my mom was acting funnily.  I just don't feel good.  I think it's my dad's fault.  He just wants to rile things up.  What did my mom start?  She's afraid of what he thinks and is more assertive.

Another Solution

Try not to be as harmful when I blow up on the inside.

Also, someone crashed me and a thought without much restraint came back to me.

Issue

They are silly enough to believe I meant to call them shit.  No, I wasn't doing that.  You wish so you could be done with me more or less.

I don't want my dad to be a part of my life like this.  They are acting like they are raising me.  I don't want to pretend to do this.

More Problems

What if they have the power to take away parents and people from my life?

Worried

I don't wanna hurt my mom, but I'm not taking this.  She was inflicting decisions on me, and I'm mad about someone else attacking us.

Problems

Why did I get the message Ellen is mad at me for saying something?

My mom said in secret message about my possible future daughter, "There, I put her thru Hell."  I think my dad made my possible future so go, "Whoah!"

Anyway, I moved in a way that attacked my mom back cuz I am sick as Hell of writing about all this crap.  I was in the kitchen eating.  She also was like, "There," like I didn't do anything.  I already said I'm not doing this shit.

My dad left last night with the secret message he has to come back and surround me and "do it" with me, a bad feeling and idea.  He never came back.  My mom left now to show him something.

Do you know about when people "just care about themselves?"  Where did this come from?  I know I don't matter.  I don't think what I said makes no sense.  I don't know how you cut up and dice thoughts.  I feel it is a little inappropriate but for the "wrong" reasons.  Supposedly, something I said was hurting someone's feelings, something that other people thought, too, like we were yelling at them.  I said don't hold me to it and that it was an iffy topic.  I had to put in much effort to go and change it up further.

How cruel of you to go in and pretend to make my possible future kids's noses stretched out to wide and dislocated from their faces?  What are you?

So, you're mad..

..it's not because you're in a dilemma like my dad.

What someone did to me was very evil.  It seemed to spread like wildfire.

I didn't know what I said was so serious, but what about the other people who get to do that?  I bet even you all do that.

It still hurts.  I can very well take it back, as I said, was just a thought and not put to words on my blog.

I feel a couple people have trapped me in a dungeon with no success in the world.  It's like they threw me out there while I was still having a nightmare.

If what I said actually hurt this person, it makes it weird to me why she would hurt me in her own way.  You all are against me and don't care who I am.  Some of you all seem outspoken saying you said I was so great all my life but you take it back and say I'm tacky, shallow, ugly, and not smart.  Maybe, this is proof?  I guess the situation must have seemed overly serious.  Before, I don't remember doing this.  My dad may have been a negative influence.  Maybe, my mom is the one who isn't negative?  I feel we all have a negative side.  I don't usually think of these things.  My question was just what to do to see things in different ways, like what happened here.  We still haven't answered that.  I'm guessing other people are allowed to have those thoughts.  They probably come in on purpose on a regular basis and for no reason.  What about that person being mean to me?  That was my release.  I guess I'll do it natural now, but I think other people behind her back think that serves her right.  I hope it doesn't happen like this in the future, but I do have proof people are saying people deserve d**** who are mean to me.  I can't get mad cuz I know they are trying to temporarily stick up for me.  So, that's another confusing thing that happens.  I've never wanted to wish d**** on anyone.  I think I saw that no one cares about other people wishing d**** on someone but still my problem is bad, like maybe one day it would be that just like that.  I feel this is a bit uptight and picky to make a big deal on something without thinking about actually solving it.  The point is to see what matters, how someone's feelings really are.  It seems like it's to make sure someone, myself, gets it, as in being made to feel bad and punished.  Maybe, that's important.  It seems tho that people don't treat me right and will make me upset in some other way again.  With this other stuff that's been done to me, I won't simply sweep it under the rug nor out the door.  I feel I'm just constantly being tested, now to venerate this person.  I'll get into that in another topic.

So, I'm sorry and I certainly was ready to take it back.  I just wanted to know why other people can threat d**** and I can't seem to do anything but be placed down under, while I worry about being responsible for someone else being framed to look gaudy.

I hope people out there are feeling okay/alright.  I understand, some of ya'll aren't, but neither am I.  I feel uncomfortable with my parents/dad here in Orlando.  I don't know what's happening right now/next.  My dad is strangely in a better mood.  I hope he's alright.  He needs to hit the gym is what he needs to do.

So, I hope I don't cause trouble too much if at all, hopefully not.  Hope things are all going well for you all.  I hope this is a helpful alleviator and look into what not to do, which I figured out.  I just needed to not rest on a false idea.  I need to keep thinking to know where I'm really at, without creating trouble.  I can avoid it, as well.  I can try to take care of other people's issues, like making someone else look stuck up.

So, I hope this has helped.

I'm trying out to act and model..

.and I can't reload one of my pictures.

Problem

They are messing with me and how I feel in a place.  I don't have a problem, someone else is being mean to me and I'm not being mean to them.

How funny is it to just sit there bemused at someone while they kick you with the opposite of pity?  That's when the moments come up.  I see ignoring has done the trick.  Time apart and in help can be necessary.

Sometimes, I think of things when you tell them to me.  I don't give a care about hurting anyone.

I will not be able to forgive anyone for making me look bad if I think something you don't approve of or if it comes to mind.  You shouldn't always be knowing about me.  You have nothing to do with me.  My life is just your problems of wanting to be the baby.  I don't seem to talk about much else.

Problem

They made the page go black then white when I posted that.

My dad does whatever comes up to his mom, and she thinks if something happens around something else "it must be re-L-ated."

My dad was thinking of something I do with someone I like and acting mean with his arm and I just happened to think of like a cartoon cutting off his arm.  I didn't say anything nor at like much nor was he to be looking at me.

Later, last night, he came walking from far away, I think like he was all that coming to rescue me, then made me stimulated in that part and closed his bathroom door.

Problem

Someone called me "dear" on Facebook who annoys me and I just used the word "sweet."

I don't want 1 person missing.

My dad should not be necessary in my life if he thinks he can threaten everyone away from showing me affection in my personal life that has nothing to do with him in a way..

Why is everyone in the media acting like I need a lesson?  Who do you think I am and what do you think you're doing?

Problem

How is it spreading around that I'm bad cuz I hit something every day for a week when I was into being cool like Ellen with short blonde hair?  I am not gonna live without that cool stuff.  I earned it.  My hitting, so what, I was in my room, it was my sofa you were mad about hitting.  You don't have the right to ruin my life.  What's so bad about that?  I was mad at people.

I also just heard a commercial where someone acted like they imagined me mad at counselors at my community college.  It was so long and ranting.

I have lost respect for the things that are done against me by others who supposedly are caring.

You know, I just think you can't do that and that this situation is nothing like what you fabricate it to be.  I can't wait to see you lose it and get moody, again, yourself.  Why were you guys at me?!

Threats

I feel the topic of me d*ing is touched on in secret message by my dad and someone else.  Like, "Life's short."