My life is hard.  People do weird things to me.  One wrong thought, and it could end up going just like that.  My dad made me think something I did not think later on, too, thinking I'd think it, anyway.

What should I have done?

I'm so sorry!

I guess I am wondering why my parents are being suggestive for someone nice.  Not to talk back at anyone, but it seems sneaky.  Like, everyone is just scared to be nice to me.  I'm not scared to be nice to me.  The suggestions make me wanna recluse from others.

You know, no one will think this is perfect.

Wah ah ah

I was trying so hard to be good, and if I get thrown off it's a big deal.

We aren't supposed to hover around the mention of my brother like that.

It's not nice of him to tease me and then claim he did it to make me look good.

Weird

So, my mom has delayed speech and thought.  I was all excited trying to be nice, and LOOK WHAT HAPPENED.  D:

So, f..y.i.

My brother is a little crazy, not that it should matter for this, but like acts like he's all the things I'm not and don't wanna be.

I cannot tell you how upset I am.  My parents keep being suggestive.  Supposedly, someone nice told them to do it.  It's not working out.  It's making me feel bad.  Sure, you just look in and say walk away, but it don't work like that.  I just asked her, "Why?"  I'm telling you now why it's upsetting.  I don't wanna fight, but I feel that people are trying to make my life even worse.  GO GET A LIFE!  :|

So, my parents are being suggestive to me now and I'm not sure why.  It did make me upset.  I know what they really mean.  I already said I don't give a care about what old ladies think, "Ooh, a punishment must be related."  I didn't do anything.  At least not originally.  They are sending me those mean secret messages, again.  They think that I did something, but they did something.  It was even as silly as telling me to put something somewhere.  On my brother's chair.  He is nothing like me.  So, I asked, "Why?"  So what?  My mom was being a grump.  She keeps irritating me.  Also, she doesn't act excited when I come home, and I think someone made her do it.  Wow, doesn't matter.  She think she's all that.

I should just be happy.  I mean, it should like, how would you say it, "go over my head?"  I am so happy, but I wonder what that punishment thing is.  Cuz I'm fat?

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Apologetic

It cleared the way for a good evening.

I guess I did the right thing.

I said I wasn't mad at someone.

I should have overcome.

Apology

Sometimes, when I'm alone, I'm a little stupid, like I'm running out of ammo or something.

These people in my room are so mean.  I was thinking that these messages must all be suggestions.  I don't like a bad relationship via my parents.

Please stop.

They have a "stupid question."  No, I don't mean anything against anyone.  I'm just saying what they're doing to me.  Trying to make me feel like I'm bad.

Sorry

My parents came in.  My mom was acting weird about my chicken I cut up.  Then, my dad, and I felt uncomfortable.  He understands that..

Problem

My mom was kidding around again, she's like "2 days" like I'm punished, acting dumbfounded.  My dad has a useless, annoying thing about 1 day he acts like.  I don't do anything.  If I don't wanna talk to my parents a certain way and too much is up to me.  So, I barely did anything, and my mom did that.  I live with them.  She was pretending she was being cute and that someone else told her to tell me that.

Someone just took a dump on me.  Threatened me again.  Bet it won't stop.  But they think someone said it I don't want to say it moreso.  No one cares about the wrong things others say.  I don't listen to it.  Why are you slowly giving me these messages?  It seems pointless for my life, at least.  My life was stolen from me 10 years..

Is this a slip of the tongue in the process?  It's not fun being tested like this by all these people.  I just said no, that's the answer.  You said  you were doing it just to test me.

So, to clarify

I have to say no to the marshmallow thing going on forever.  It's wrong, and I didn't curse at anyone nor get mad.  Well, maybe a bit upset.

I was wondering who all did it.  Supposedly, just happened.  It seems mean, even if you think I got upset in the wrong way for something else.  It's very annoying.  It's like it won't stop.  Everyone's doing it.

I would not think something silly like I am bad to say this.  I am merely reporting and giving my opinion.  It seems serious and important.  We just had to waste a few days.  So, what, that's life, right?

cont.

I noticed they don't act nice for the other person but are being mean to me now.  Like Heathens with their mouths open and teeth bared making hissing noises bouncing around.  Why do I keep seeing this image, anyway?  Right now, there are 3 or 4..

Chasing & Flooding

It seems if I post that someone did something they chase after me.  They keep on saying something.. rubbing it in.  It shouldn't be so.  It's about how in liking others that I already have 2 parents.. I also live with them.  I just wanted to report it.  I am not gonna fight or whatever.  Everyone knows it's wrong.  It was okay to say, but someone/people are incessantly threatening me.

Also, everyone keeps acting like I'm a marshmallow when I go out.  People were acting like I wasn't white at Christmas at the movies, and it was funny I figured they were all the s word, tho I wouldn't do it again unless I lost my mind or thought it was funny again for some unknown reason.  It probably reached other parts of the country and world.  So, I won't curse, but no I do not take that whoever started it.  People are uncomfortable.  I see there could be a reason, and I could let it slide.  I think it's a bit dangerous.  Is it for m********ing?  I'm sorry about that, but I mean that was supposedly a private thing, my therapist even told me.  Someone has to m********* and then something like this that has no ending known when I got out?


Also, last night I explained I didn't want anything against the person concerning the 1st thing.  I can't believe I don't go over and make sense to anyone.

Am I Mad

Not at the person I'm talking about.

I'm not mad at anyone I know of.

I just noticed I was being mistreated.  I can't get people to stop treating me like I'm not white for real, no matter who started it, and people won't leave me alone morally.