I'm not doing this.  You be mean to me and say someone gets something I don't and I don't do anything wrong and you get mad.

These people in my room spout random insults.

Apology

Sorry if over on Facebook you are upset at what I said @ Bella Thorne.  I wasn't trying to attack her.  It's obvious.

I don't like people secretly telling me I do things wrongly when I don't.  I'm not answering to mistakes from the past every day.

Apology

I only have the right to be mad with myself.  I don't know who dunnit.  Even if they did, I dunno whose fault it was.  I am not asking for "forgiveness."

I've been trying to avoid "fighting."  That's why I'm not like all talking about this, plus I had a revelation it was a waste of my time when I went thru a phantasmagoria.

Of course, it's insulting messages.  I welcomed them to leave before.

Do you know people who just can't be quiet and get out?  That's what it's like when the people experimenting on me always mess with how the computer loads like I need them to talk to me.

What's so amazing about telling me I did something wrong when I didn't?  You think I was so bad when you annoyed me and I kept hitting my couch.

Who Done What

Knowest Not I, but they aren't going to be very happy.  Why?  Cuz I don't care what they say.

I'm weird

I should not have been so upset about the talking.

People make me mad.  I already explained myself, at least partly.  How would anyone even know what happened?

So, I get told something insulting, like I'm just to be tossed aside.  I kept flaring at myself on the inside in my room in my bed.  People keep insulting me in what they say, like I wanna follow a string of messages.  I did actually manage to not tell myself the truth.  The truth I still do not know to myself.  So, I was dodging getting too upset.  What was mentioned about someone more innocent was just an accident and barely breathed out.  I told myself what was done was wrong to quell my anger.  I got upset at the root of the blame, but I've been trying to hold back.  I couldn't land this nonsense anywhere.  I've been stolen from my esteem.  I don't wanna be bugged by the people talking to me in my room nor my parents!  This isn't the 1-way ticket out.  If you don't like me and just be nice to me to act like Johnny Depp, fine, but I can call the police.

I already told myself I had what I needed, but you people keep being the ones to tell me otherwise!

Why are these people talking to me meanly like this while I type?

Mad

I dunno who done what, but I had a mad reaction.

I don't think it's "cute," and I don't think it's "funny."

I guess no one cares who done what, long as it's been done.

You can't have a say in my life if I can't have a say in the world.

Would I do outlandish things to myself if I felt bad about what I did?  Does anyone have a right to try to make another person feel bad?

If you wonder why I look how I do it's cuz I haven't been out day in and day out.  I'm not reduced to nothing really.  That's why I need to work on school.  I won't be sedentary.

I did not do anything to anyone badly.  I am just a problem for others.  I just wanna coast thru my days now, but I can't.

They are disturbing me in private, again.

Apology?

What happened to make for such a bad day?

I wanted to be nice to Dad, but on the inside kept making me mad.  His driving off-ed one of my eyes.  Someone may have told him to hurt me for a silly reason or because of silly people.  People in Orlando I can say easily are very off.

Very sorry, I should not be out of it.  I go to bed, everything is fine, I forget.  Help me now.

Also, about the California comment, lotta people know and have problems, not pointing anyone out.

Did you know I am a little sick and delusional?

I guess it was a big accident.

My dad left me hanging.  I was thinking how normal people can fun @ curse words, like construction workers, army, etc.  They think they are so smart.  My dad on purpose bothered me in secret message about touching someone, surprised me.  I thought of cursing again more carefully and it came up but not in context of a sentence.

I'm so sorry for if I should not have said anything.  I'm sure there was something good I should say.  I dunno really what others think of this.

I had a phantasmagoria when I was on pain killers for my spine for 12 hours in bed trying to sleep.  I heard Dr. Phil or someone telling me I want this now that now in lapses, in between.  I have been trying to exercise not doing this/relaxing.  I cannot get a hold of those thoughts.  I just wait as if for the Messiah.