Apology

I don't mean to say someone is annoying so much as I feel uncomfortable about what they're doing, like others deserve to live but I don't because of the curse words I used but not like to disfigure their emotional sense of being.  I thought I was trying not to curse at them.  I see I have my parents online, but I was so worried I'd curse about someone not online.  It was like a safety buffer.  I eventually overcame it, but it took a long time or too long for its likings.