1st, I imagined k***ing myself. These thoughts against others would/do not do.
So, I got up.
I wanted to say I'm stuck here thinking of things that don't matter.
I can't have my dad and older aunt thinking I can't have a relationship with someone if they don't like some thing I do or if I do something I in the end/really know is wrong. So what if I'm in a relationship? My Gramma thinks so, too. Stop making me feel guilty. My dad also has a peeve I should not see my relatives and he was supported in this by someone else. They are mean people who refuse to show me any feeling. They don't show it in the right way now that I'm not as inhibited.