..it's not because you're in a dilemma like my dad.
What someone did to me was very evil. It seemed to spread like wildfire.
I didn't know what I said was so serious, but what about the other people who get to do that? I bet even you all do that.
It still hurts. I can very well take it back, as I said, was just a thought and not put to words on my blog.
I feel a couple people have trapped me in a dungeon with no success in the world. It's like they threw me out there while I was still having a nightmare.
If what I said actually hurt this person, it makes it weird to me why she would hurt me in her own way. You all are against me and don't care who I am. Some of you all seem outspoken saying you said I was so great all my life but you take it back and say I'm tacky, shallow, ugly, and not smart. Maybe, this is proof? I guess the situation must have seemed overly serious. Before, I don't remember doing this. My dad may have been a negative influence. Maybe, my mom is the one who isn't negative? I feel we all have a negative side. I don't usually think of these things. My question was just what to do to see things in different ways, like what happened here. We still haven't answered that. I'm guessing other people are allowed to have those thoughts. They probably come in on purpose on a regular basis and for no reason. What about that person being mean to me? That was my release. I guess I'll do it natural now, but I think other people behind her back think that serves her right. I hope it doesn't happen like this in the future, but I do have proof people are saying people deserve d**** who are mean to me. I can't get mad cuz I know they are trying to temporarily stick up for me. So, that's another confusing thing that happens. I've never wanted to wish d**** on anyone. I think I saw that no one cares about other people wishing d**** on someone but still my problem is bad, like maybe one day it would be that just like that. I feel this is a bit uptight and picky to make a big deal on something without thinking about actually solving it. The point is to see what matters, how someone's feelings really are. It seems like it's to make sure someone, myself, gets it, as in being made to feel bad and punished. Maybe, that's important. It seems tho that people don't treat me right and will make me upset in some other way again. With this other stuff that's been done to me, I won't simply sweep it under the rug nor out the door. I feel I'm just constantly being tested, now to venerate this person. I'll get into that in another topic.
So, I'm sorry and I certainly was ready to take it back. I just wanted to know why other people can threat d**** and I can't seem to do anything but be placed down under, while I worry about being responsible for someone else being framed to look gaudy.
I hope people out there are feeling okay/alright. I understand, some of ya'll aren't, but neither am I. I feel uncomfortable with my parents/dad here in Orlando. I don't know what's happening right now/next. My dad is strangely in a better mood. I hope he's alright. He needs to hit the gym is what he needs to do.
So, I hope I don't cause trouble too much if at all, hopefully not. Hope things are all going well for you all. I hope this is a helpful alleviator and look into what not to do, which I figured out. I just needed to not rest on a false idea. I need to keep thinking to know where I'm really at, without creating trouble. I can avoid it, as well. I can try to take care of other people's issues, like making someone else look stuck up.
So, I hope this has helped.