Dad's home, time to eat, more to put on the plate for this place (blog.)

How am I bad?

These negative messages seem to be having a domino effect.

here

home

I might've gotten more mad here.

This is all pretty laid out factually.  I am trying to avert this place.

You never know what people mean.

It seems to mean you're outta your game temporarily.  It might be a detached message from you that means nothing against what you believe but your problems.

My Race

You aren't supposed to mention it, but I like to sometimes.  I'm not suddenly okay liking Chinese because someone with Italian blood shows up.  Disclaimer, I do like Chinese like anyone would.

Another Fact

Not only does it matter who it is but are they competent to talk to someone so much.. I guess like a teacher of one class all year?

Paying

If they do it, it is like way prestigious, but it might just be taking out anger.

I think 1 reason

1 would use it was to, not only get rid of me, but to make prestigious people feel comfortable that I'm not just prestigious meeting prestigious people and to get at me for nothing.  What liars.  I do want friends.  This isn't friends.

Paying

Why am I interacting with strangers who tap into my room and computer with speakers, cameras, hacking, etc.?  Is this a trap?  What if they are rubbing off on me in a way I don't like?  I am not saying this all of a sudden but wondering about when it last started in 2012, which is a long time.  What about when it happened in 2005?  They stopped in 2005..

Do I have to say this, too?

You only don't want me to talk anymore it seems because I tried to improve on that, and this catastrophe may take baby steps for me.

So, I'm 2nd class.  They are on the defensive.   I don't know how else to make my point and say this but elevating someone as "princess."   I can almost see people, they are getting at me like I prevented someone from being "princess."  Someone used to treat me like a star.

Well, it's true, some things really aren't worth it.

Now, my mom is messing around with her ruitine with me.  Among other things.  How is that okay, for my family to do this?

They won't stop.  They want a relationship severed.  They're still making up stuff!!

How can I make things better?  I don't feel I'd get a direct answer to this question.

Wouldn't it be interesting if there was a real reason discussed, like why ya'll get so mad if I find an issue to talk about of a certain someone and situation.

I don't want what these people to do to ruin my life and anything in it.  All I did was say what happened, tho it wasn't fun.

Problem

They are acting like I'm whining and whining as though I were a made up version of my dad.  They are bothering me.  Looks like they don't care.

They're still messing around.

Do I need to "pay?"

Why does everyone in public keep calling me a marshmallow?

Why are they invading my privacy?

cont.

I just got an outfit in case I get on Dr. Phil..

They are sending me more messages..

Problems

There is 1 notification on my Facebook and they took awhile to load this.. I am saving for a new computer, too..

cont.

shopping for a hat

and they are picking on me for feeling guilty - ARGH

They are doing something weird on my computer.  I'm shopping, and the Go sign pops up 1st on the side.

Ya'll haven't really developed a special reason for getting upset every time I post something here.

I'm so sorry if it has to be like this.  Yes, I am fending for myself like a mature person.  I am not trying to become insulting.  Remember the heading of this blog??

I think they are busy tossing things to like hassle with me, like, "Oh, what if no one famous gave you any attention."  And so what about this, "What if I got attention.  Ha ha ha ha."  You could just in the end not really pay any attention to me, and I'd deal with it.  What if I said I'd prefer one person over another now but maybe later "get back in the game with other people being a fan?"

Problem

I DON'T LIKE THIS PERSON BOTHERING ME VIA THE COMPUTER, MAKING THINGS HAPPEN AT CERTAIN TIMES

And like I said

it looks bad on her (part.)

So

The problem is I have someone fighting me.

He said what he said.

Why does my dad follow my thoughts of saying, "in pain?"

Do you have any friends?  I'm not asking sarcastically.  I'm thinking of something abstract.  Like, I guess if I want friends I have to take turns and listen.

I welcome ya'll into my life.

You already said what you said.  What exactly is it you wish you had?  Don't waste your life bothering me.

I don't agree

that I should be punished to begin with.

Problem

My parents are getting close to me in a weird way with symbolic messages left around the home.

I know who all's behind this.  Why do ya'll keep being racists?

This person is being promoted.

Problem

I'm am being harassed and bullied daily by someone younger.

Does anyone just have an allergic reaction to things being posted across the internet??

Problem

People are working on distancing me from some people and harming me.

Problem

People keep acting like I'm bad.

OK, come on.

Don't be afraid to talk.

I can see that someone tried to punish me using someone else to get attention when it's my turn.

My life is hard.  People do weird things to me.  One wrong thought, and it could end up going just like that.  My dad made me think something I did not think later on, too, thinking I'd think it, anyway.

What should I have done?

I'm so sorry!

I guess I am wondering why my parents are being suggestive for someone nice.  Not to talk back at anyone, but it seems sneaky.  Like, everyone is just scared to be nice to me.  I'm not scared to be nice to me.  The suggestions make me wanna recluse from others.

You know, no one will think this is perfect.

Wah ah ah

I was trying so hard to be good, and if I get thrown off it's a big deal.

We aren't supposed to hover around the mention of my brother like that.

It's not nice of him to tease me and then claim he did it to make me look good.

Weird

So, my mom has delayed speech and thought.  I was all excited trying to be nice, and LOOK WHAT HAPPENED.  D:

So, f..y.i.

My brother is a little crazy, not that it should matter for this, but like acts like he's all the things I'm not and don't wanna be.

I cannot tell you how upset I am.  My parents keep being suggestive.  Supposedly, someone nice told them to do it.  It's not working out.  It's making me feel bad.  Sure, you just look in and say walk away, but it don't work like that.  I just asked her, "Why?"  I'm telling you now why it's upsetting.  I don't wanna fight, but I feel that people are trying to make my life even worse.  GO GET A LIFE!  :|

So, my parents are being suggestive to me now and I'm not sure why.  It did make me upset.  I know what they really mean.  I already said I don't give a care about what old ladies think, "Ooh, a punishment must be related."  I didn't do anything.  At least not originally.  They are sending me those mean secret messages, again.  They think that I did something, but they did something.  It was even as silly as telling me to put something somewhere.  On my brother's chair.  He is nothing like me.  So, I asked, "Why?"  So what?  My mom was being a grump.  She keeps irritating me.  Also, she doesn't act excited when I come home, and I think someone made her do it.  Wow, doesn't matter.  She think she's all that.

I should just be happy.  I mean, it should like, how would you say it, "go over my head?"  I am so happy, but I wonder what that punishment thing is.  Cuz I'm fat?

Edit

Heading

Apologetic

It cleared the way for a good evening.

I guess I did the right thing.

I said I wasn't mad at someone.

I should have overcome.

Apology

Sometimes, when I'm alone, I'm a little stupid, like I'm running out of ammo or something.

These people in my room are so mean.  I was thinking that these messages must all be suggestions.  I don't like a bad relationship via my parents.

Please stop.

They have a "stupid question."  No, I don't mean anything against anyone.  I'm just saying what they're doing to me.  Trying to make me feel like I'm bad.

Sorry

My parents came in.  My mom was acting weird about my chicken I cut up.  Then, my dad, and I felt uncomfortable.  He understands that..

Problem

My mom was kidding around again, she's like "2 days" like I'm punished, acting dumbfounded.  My dad has a useless, annoying thing about 1 day he acts like.  I don't do anything.  If I don't wanna talk to my parents a certain way and too much is up to me.  So, I barely did anything, and my mom did that.  I live with them.  She was pretending she was being cute and that someone else told her to tell me that.

Someone just took a dump on me.  Threatened me again.  Bet it won't stop.  But they think someone said it I don't want to say it moreso.  No one cares about the wrong things others say.  I don't listen to it.  Why are you slowly giving me these messages?  It seems pointless for my life, at least.  My life was stolen from me 10 years..

Is this a slip of the tongue in the process?  It's not fun being tested like this by all these people.  I just said no, that's the answer.  You said  you were doing it just to test me.

So, to clarify

I have to say no to the marshmallow thing going on forever.  It's wrong, and I didn't curse at anyone nor get mad.  Well, maybe a bit upset.

I was wondering who all did it.  Supposedly, just happened.  It seems mean, even if you think I got upset in the wrong way for something else.  It's very annoying.  It's like it won't stop.  Everyone's doing it.

I would not think something silly like I am bad to say this.  I am merely reporting and giving my opinion.  It seems serious and important.  We just had to waste a few days.  So, what, that's life, right?

cont.

I noticed they don't act nice for the other person but are being mean to me now.  Like Heathens with their mouths open and teeth bared making hissing noises bouncing around.  Why do I keep seeing this image, anyway?  Right now, there are 3 or 4..

Chasing & Flooding

It seems if I post that someone did something they chase after me.  They keep on saying something.. rubbing it in.  It shouldn't be so.  It's about how in liking others that I already have 2 parents.. I also live with them.  I just wanted to report it.  I am not gonna fight or whatever.  Everyone knows it's wrong.  It was okay to say, but someone/people are incessantly threatening me.

Also, everyone keeps acting like I'm a marshmallow when I go out.  People were acting like I wasn't white at Christmas at the movies, and it was funny I figured they were all the s word, tho I wouldn't do it again unless I lost my mind or thought it was funny again for some unknown reason.  It probably reached other parts of the country and world.  So, I won't curse, but no I do not take that whoever started it.  People are uncomfortable.  I see there could be a reason, and I could let it slide.  I think it's a bit dangerous.  Is it for m********ing?  I'm sorry about that, but I mean that was supposedly a private thing, my therapist even told me.  Someone has to m********* and then something like this that has no ending known when I got out?


Also, last night I explained I didn't want anything against the person concerning the 1st thing.  I can't believe I don't go over and make sense to anyone.

Am I Mad

Not at the person I'm talking about.

I'm not mad at anyone I know of.

I just noticed I was being mistreated.  I can't get people to stop treating me like I'm not white for real, no matter who started it, and people won't leave me alone morally.

I can see that all the innocence is saved up for this person, whom I in a way have nothing against.  She just sits there, basically, and waits for her turn to build up while my life seems to be wasting away in that light.  Maybe, you can sleep on a stone floor, but I chose not to.  I'm not trying to make a fight with any person.  Why am I saying this?  Because it's important!  It's serious!  I'm not trying to fight.  I'm just talking like a normal person.  I was doing what you just did.  Trying to make a point using things that happen to be disagreeable.  It was a smart revelation that other people would like to talk about, maybe not you individually all of you.  Lotta people, tho.  I am not the odd one out who does not participate in the nature of my own problems.  I am sorry if I am just a failure and disagreeable.  I didn't say I was fighting..  I just mean it's good to notice.  It might even be important, and for some reason it can go on this blog.

Time to Talk?

There's this person who just goes online and says anything and it's okay.  I sit here putting up with this mess.

I found these people are literally taking a dump on me.  Oh, and they are threatening me.

Look, who's doing this new stuff now?  Whatever was said, I can see they are playing around on my part like bullies.  I realize everyone is against me and everyone knew about it.  What of it?  For this spinoff it was 2 things that made for an interesting way to continue a message.  They really are mean to me in private.  They are saying things in bad ways.  I don't wanna put up with this.  No one else does.   I'm just saying what they did and my opinion.  You already did what you did.  Now, they are teasing me for posting about this.  It's incessant.  You might think it's a simple message, but I have a dangerous person/people in my life.

How out of place..

to say "in my face?"  No, I obviously don't mean it that way if you happen to know anything about me.  I don't know what to do.  This is serious.

Why are you making me look bad?  You keep rubbing something in my face that's serious.  It wasn't right or this time was weirder/superfluous, but I don't wanna fight anyone, and I don't "dislike" anyone.

Point being.. I don't want to say anything out of place, whatever just happened.

So, here's to say sorry.  I guess the details were to identify the issue.

I think I'm at risk

I never get treated right.  I am at risk of thinking nothing matters, like morally.

Not trying to fight, but I mean what I mean.  If I have a hard time explaining something unimportant does not mean I will listen to old ladies that "it must be related" into trouble for me, like being in trouble.  This comes up with everything all the time.

I am officially worried.

I am being prodded about things that make me mad.  Anything could come.

They are attacking me again.  They won't stop!

I came up with that it's not some drama including me between my Gramma and people who don't know me well in my extended family.

My dad has destroyed my relationship opportunities.  Admit you fell for it.

Problems

THEY WON'T STOP.

They keep making my mouse show up the hourglass sign randomly.

Problem

THEY  KEEP BOTHERING ME.

They made a video not play right in the news on my tablet.

Problem

My dad was feeling bad and got so nasty in thoughts I had to leave the table and brought my "crackers" with me, my dried up Triscuits.

I was thinking for him to stop mediating my relationships.  Don't listen to other people on what to say to me.

I'm really sorry I was so mad and get so often confused and sometimes things come oue that shouldn't have been.  Please, find someone else to talk to you like.

I am sorry for my bad behavior.  I need to calm down and accept it but yea avoid it.

So

What you want me to talk to you?  Why are people doing all this disciplining on me?  My dad can't have done it.  And you're doing it for no good reason.

What are you doing?

This is not nice.  My dad supposedly didn't do it.

Important

This is an important blog to have.

Problem

I feel if I make one mistake for no good reason - and maybe it wasn't wrong - someone is over my shoulder silently cursing me.  I am constantly interacted with with these people for others's likings in a mean way.  They say they proved they care, but this is too much.  Cursing doesn't really help.

Apology

I don't mean to say someone is annoying so much as I feel uncomfortable about what they're doing, like others deserve to live but I don't because of the curse words I used but not like to disfigure their emotional sense of being.  I thought I was trying not to curse at them.  I see I have my parents online, but I was so worried I'd curse about someone not online.  It was like a safety buffer.  I eventually overcame it, but it took a long time or too long for its likings.

The people where I live are bothering, too.

These people watching me are really bothering me and so is another person who I don't know what they're doing in my life.

Someone is spreading apart liking things on my page like stalking me.  Another person from the experiment probably tho.

Now, someone made the big change dieting now.  My dad about to go all the way.  Yea right.

OK I know there are people out there bothering me.

Problem

Someone posted on Twitter early today, too, and sponsored a message from someone they are acting like is better that we have to remember or could, probably from someone else.  See, that is a problem.

So, they did it on purpose against me to annoy me, how pathetic.  What can you do about this?

I bet it's something creative to get something going.  This is a person in all of our lives's, tho.  Dunno why they would do that now and not before.

Well, what happened was..

..I didn't think I could keep on submitting to the illusions to someone hurting me and bossing me around.  I didn't really know what the thing was.  So, I just gave an innocent report, so I thought.  A little opinion but not crazy like in the kitchen.  I was probably from a friend and something to forget about concerning them..

Problem

They keep trying to talk to me every little chance I get.

Problem

They said I was not up with pleasure.  What is all this new taboo on me for?  You didn't say that would happen.

That's okay if you don't wanna talk to me.

I guess someone doesn't care if someone is insulting to them.