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Bear in mind, a lotta these posts are of interest to normal people. - This is my diary available online to get help from others. I never mean any harm. My thoughts may appear scattered at times, but I bring it together. Some things may not make sense to you..
Friday, March 13, 2015
Testing Me
Now, they wanna say I did something wrong and about what I was mad at.
I feel affected, and I don't like it.
I feel affected, and I don't like it.
STOP REPORTING LIES - STOP BOTHERING ME ABOUT THEM
What am I gonna do now? I was just upset. I dunno if I'm upset at someone, but I don't believe it's that someone's actual doing, which would be pretty bad. So, who did it?
You wanna know what happened, some of you? I just thought I didn't want this shit and I was too mad to think and was worried someone did it and it kinda overlapped, like this lady I've been talking about I don't chose to get close to who keeps coming back to me on Facebook when no one else does because I was mad one week I found out about a lady I liked in her country, Australia.
They keep rubbing my dad in, but I don't want a mess with him. We are not the best compatible, not that I am with anyone, but I don't wanna do this with him. You know, he's being mean about this. I don't have to have anything to do with him. Why do I feel my eyes popping outta my head?
What am I gonna do now? I was just upset. I dunno if I'm upset at someone, but I don't believe it's that someone's actual doing, which would be pretty bad. So, who did it?
You wanna know what happened, some of you? I just thought I didn't want this shit and I was too mad to think and was worried someone did it and it kinda overlapped, like this lady I've been talking about I don't chose to get close to who keeps coming back to me on Facebook when no one else does because I was mad one week I found out about a lady I liked in her country, Australia.
They keep rubbing my dad in, but I don't want a mess with him. We are not the best compatible, not that I am with anyone, but I don't wanna do this with him. You know, he's being mean about this. I don't have to have anything to do with him. Why do I feel my eyes popping outta my head?
I'll just make clear yes someone technically and rightfully can talk to who they want, but so can I. I was gonna say about them not talking to that other person, but I came to a different conclusion about how my rights are unfair. Hard to think of again, but you might be able to tell it easily or that there is an idea there.
I don't mean to be mean..
..I almost took it as a joke and just wanted to jot it down.
I see the signs, tho. Why do they keep bothering me?
I see the signs, tho. Why do they keep bothering me?
Issue
They are messing around again saying I can't have someone I like and instead all these other people are getting away with being inappropriate to me. They're being nitpicky about when they made me mad. They want to replace my mom being special to me or something, that general idea of "who your mom really is.."
Warning
My mom's nose got wider and bigger..
Warning? I meant abstractly just for her.
My nose is too wide, hope it doesn't get wider the rest of my life or something.
It happened after going somewhere with my dad awhile.
You know, he acts bemused and thinks if I do something wrong that it's not his fault, not someone else in the world's fault, but my mom's fault. That's far from right. In fact, she was too hard on me as little kid.
What am I missing? It gave me inspiration to write something on my real blog.
So.. :|
I don't think that makes sense. My dad probably thinks it's magic and that his mom told him to do it. My mom's nose getting wider? Nah. That's not okay. Maybe, she tried too hard to make it thin and that's why, just to know for comfort. Hopefully, she stays young and her nose gets better. I was upset someone in an office made my nose wider, and my Gramma changed it making a noise, too. I thought someone told them to do it. I didn't like that nor accept that it was okay.
So, sorry if I said anything not right. I hope we don't do any more hurting my mom if I do something, which my dad seems to have partially orchestrated. I can't prove anything else, maybe seems like this one other person I'm not naming..
Warning? I meant abstractly just for her.
My nose is too wide, hope it doesn't get wider the rest of my life or something.
It happened after going somewhere with my dad awhile.
You know, he acts bemused and thinks if I do something wrong that it's not his fault, not someone else in the world's fault, but my mom's fault. That's far from right. In fact, she was too hard on me as little kid.
What am I missing? It gave me inspiration to write something on my real blog.
So.. :|
I don't think that makes sense. My dad probably thinks it's magic and that his mom told him to do it. My mom's nose getting wider? Nah. That's not okay. Maybe, she tried too hard to make it thin and that's why, just to know for comfort. Hopefully, she stays young and her nose gets better. I was upset someone in an office made my nose wider, and my Gramma changed it making a noise, too. I thought someone told them to do it. I didn't like that nor accept that it was okay.
So, sorry if I said anything not right. I hope we don't do any more hurting my mom if I do something, which my dad seems to have partially orchestrated. I can't prove anything else, maybe seems like this one other person I'm not naming..
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Problem
They made my shopping icon a blank at the bottom of my taskbar. They are trying to make me think of something and punish me for something else. How annoying is that?
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Another Solution
Try not to be as harmful when I blow up on the inside.
Also, someone crashed me and a thought without much restraint came back to me.
Also, someone crashed me and a thought without much restraint came back to me.
Problems
Why did I get the message Ellen is mad at me for saying something?
My mom said in secret message about my possible future daughter, "There, I put her thru Hell." I think my dad made my possible future so go, "Whoah!"
Anyway, I moved in a way that attacked my mom back cuz I am sick as Hell of writing about all this crap. I was in the kitchen eating. She also was like, "There," like I didn't do anything. I already said I'm not doing this shit.
My mom said in secret message about my possible future daughter, "There, I put her thru Hell." I think my dad made my possible future so go, "Whoah!"
Anyway, I moved in a way that attacked my mom back cuz I am sick as Hell of writing about all this crap. I was in the kitchen eating. She also was like, "There," like I didn't do anything. I already said I'm not doing this shit.
Do you know about when people "just care about themselves?" Where did this come from? I know I don't matter. I don't think what I said makes no sense. I don't know how you cut up and dice thoughts. I feel it is a little inappropriate but for the "wrong" reasons. Supposedly, something I said was hurting someone's feelings, something that other people thought, too, like we were yelling at them. I said don't hold me to it and that it was an iffy topic. I had to put in much effort to go and change it up further.
How cruel of you to go in and pretend to make my possible future kids's noses stretched out to wide and dislocated from their faces? What are you?
How cruel of you to go in and pretend to make my possible future kids's noses stretched out to wide and dislocated from their faces? What are you?
So, you're mad..
..it's not because you're in a dilemma like my dad.
What someone did to me was very evil. It seemed to spread like wildfire.
I didn't know what I said was so serious, but what about the other people who get to do that? I bet even you all do that.
It still hurts. I can very well take it back, as I said, was just a thought and not put to words on my blog.
I feel a couple people have trapped me in a dungeon with no success in the world. It's like they threw me out there while I was still having a nightmare.
If what I said actually hurt this person, it makes it weird to me why she would hurt me in her own way. You all are against me and don't care who I am. Some of you all seem outspoken saying you said I was so great all my life but you take it back and say I'm tacky, shallow, ugly, and not smart. Maybe, this is proof? I guess the situation must have seemed overly serious. Before, I don't remember doing this. My dad may have been a negative influence. Maybe, my mom is the one who isn't negative? I feel we all have a negative side. I don't usually think of these things. My question was just what to do to see things in different ways, like what happened here. We still haven't answered that. I'm guessing other people are allowed to have those thoughts. They probably come in on purpose on a regular basis and for no reason. What about that person being mean to me? That was my release. I guess I'll do it natural now, but I think other people behind her back think that serves her right. I hope it doesn't happen like this in the future, but I do have proof people are saying people deserve d**** who are mean to me. I can't get mad cuz I know they are trying to temporarily stick up for me. So, that's another confusing thing that happens. I've never wanted to wish d**** on anyone. I think I saw that no one cares about other people wishing d**** on someone but still my problem is bad, like maybe one day it would be that just like that. I feel this is a bit uptight and picky to make a big deal on something without thinking about actually solving it. The point is to see what matters, how someone's feelings really are. It seems like it's to make sure someone, myself, gets it, as in being made to feel bad and punished. Maybe, that's important. It seems tho that people don't treat me right and will make me upset in some other way again. With this other stuff that's been done to me, I won't simply sweep it under the rug nor out the door. I feel I'm just constantly being tested, now to venerate this person. I'll get into that in another topic.
So, I'm sorry and I certainly was ready to take it back. I just wanted to know why other people can threat d**** and I can't seem to do anything but be placed down under, while I worry about being responsible for someone else being framed to look gaudy.
I hope people out there are feeling okay/alright. I understand, some of ya'll aren't, but neither am I. I feel uncomfortable with my parents/dad here in Orlando. I don't know what's happening right now/next. My dad is strangely in a better mood. I hope he's alright. He needs to hit the gym is what he needs to do.
So, I hope I don't cause trouble too much if at all, hopefully not. Hope things are all going well for you all. I hope this is a helpful alleviator and look into what not to do, which I figured out. I just needed to not rest on a false idea. I need to keep thinking to know where I'm really at, without creating trouble. I can avoid it, as well. I can try to take care of other people's issues, like making someone else look stuck up.
So, I hope this has helped.
What someone did to me was very evil. It seemed to spread like wildfire.
I didn't know what I said was so serious, but what about the other people who get to do that? I bet even you all do that.
It still hurts. I can very well take it back, as I said, was just a thought and not put to words on my blog.
I feel a couple people have trapped me in a dungeon with no success in the world. It's like they threw me out there while I was still having a nightmare.
If what I said actually hurt this person, it makes it weird to me why she would hurt me in her own way. You all are against me and don't care who I am. Some of you all seem outspoken saying you said I was so great all my life but you take it back and say I'm tacky, shallow, ugly, and not smart. Maybe, this is proof? I guess the situation must have seemed overly serious. Before, I don't remember doing this. My dad may have been a negative influence. Maybe, my mom is the one who isn't negative? I feel we all have a negative side. I don't usually think of these things. My question was just what to do to see things in different ways, like what happened here. We still haven't answered that. I'm guessing other people are allowed to have those thoughts. They probably come in on purpose on a regular basis and for no reason. What about that person being mean to me? That was my release. I guess I'll do it natural now, but I think other people behind her back think that serves her right. I hope it doesn't happen like this in the future, but I do have proof people are saying people deserve d**** who are mean to me. I can't get mad cuz I know they are trying to temporarily stick up for me. So, that's another confusing thing that happens. I've never wanted to wish d**** on anyone. I think I saw that no one cares about other people wishing d**** on someone but still my problem is bad, like maybe one day it would be that just like that. I feel this is a bit uptight and picky to make a big deal on something without thinking about actually solving it. The point is to see what matters, how someone's feelings really are. It seems like it's to make sure someone, myself, gets it, as in being made to feel bad and punished. Maybe, that's important. It seems tho that people don't treat me right and will make me upset in some other way again. With this other stuff that's been done to me, I won't simply sweep it under the rug nor out the door. I feel I'm just constantly being tested, now to venerate this person. I'll get into that in another topic.
So, I'm sorry and I certainly was ready to take it back. I just wanted to know why other people can threat d**** and I can't seem to do anything but be placed down under, while I worry about being responsible for someone else being framed to look gaudy.
I hope people out there are feeling okay/alright. I understand, some of ya'll aren't, but neither am I. I feel uncomfortable with my parents/dad here in Orlando. I don't know what's happening right now/next. My dad is strangely in a better mood. I hope he's alright. He needs to hit the gym is what he needs to do.
So, I hope I don't cause trouble too much if at all, hopefully not. Hope things are all going well for you all. I hope this is a helpful alleviator and look into what not to do, which I figured out. I just needed to not rest on a false idea. I need to keep thinking to know where I'm really at, without creating trouble. I can avoid it, as well. I can try to take care of other people's issues, like making someone else look stuck up.
So, I hope this has helped.
My dad does whatever comes up to his mom, and she thinks if something happens around something else "it must be re-L-ated."
My dad was thinking of something I do with someone I like and acting mean with his arm and I just happened to think of like a cartoon cutting off his arm. I didn't say anything nor at like much nor was he to be looking at me.
Later, last night, he came walking from far away, I think like he was all that coming to rescue me, then made me stimulated in that part and closed his bathroom door.
My dad was thinking of something I do with someone I like and acting mean with his arm and I just happened to think of like a cartoon cutting off his arm. I didn't say anything nor at like much nor was he to be looking at me.
Later, last night, he came walking from far away, I think like he was all that coming to rescue me, then made me stimulated in that part and closed his bathroom door.
Problem
How is it spreading around that I'm bad cuz I hit something every day for a week when I was into being cool like Ellen with short blonde hair? I am not gonna live without that cool stuff. I earned it. My hitting, so what, I was in my room, it was my sofa you were mad about hitting. You don't have the right to ruin my life. What's so bad about that? I was mad at people.
I also just heard a commercial where someone acted like they imagined me mad at counselors at my community college. It was so long and ranting.
I have lost respect for the things that are done against me by others who supposedly are caring.
You know, I just think you can't do that and that this situation is nothing like what you fabricate it to be. I can't wait to see you lose it and get moody, again, yourself. Why were you guys at me?!
I also just heard a commercial where someone acted like they imagined me mad at counselors at my community college. It was so long and ranting.
I have lost respect for the things that are done against me by others who supposedly are caring.
You know, I just think you can't do that and that this situation is nothing like what you fabricate it to be. I can't wait to see you lose it and get moody, again, yourself. Why were you guys at me?!
Threats
I feel the topic of me d*ing is touched on in secret message by my dad and someone else. Like, "Life's short."
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