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Bear in mind, a lotta these posts are of interest to normal people. - This is my diary available online to get help from others. I never mean any harm. My thoughts may appear scattered at times, but I bring it together. Some things may not make sense to you..

Friday, January 30, 2015

Stop attacking me with someone I'm supposed to pay special respect to, VooDoo.
Stop telling me suggestive things to stimulate me using the identity of a real person.  I don't care if my dad says I have to talk to someone I don't like as much, how else you wanna say it, criminal??  In a way I don't like and when I don't want that to be a key person in the way of my life by bothering me in my room.

Upset

Someone thinks my possible future babies should be affected badly.  They did it on someone else's "so they say."

Really Upset

Someone stopped posting normally after I thought of a joke cuz I was mad and it just seemed funny and to make sense.  It's rather suggestive and self-afflicting.  I loved his posts..

So

What was the point of the night?

Also, they are imprinting things on me like they have to happen.  I can't really keep up.

cont.

They are going on!

Problem

They are still being mean.  They said looking down at my possible future daughter is "hypnotized."  I don't want that lodged in my head.

More Problems

The light was on late, too.

cont.

like a younger sister or future daughter!

Problem

They said I'd be that person I said I don't wanna be like in gymnastics, and I started at 1 3/4 til 8.

Weird

No one ever comes out and does the dishes like that.

So..

..I had to put in my ear plugs.

More

Someone is smashing dishes in the kitchen.

Now what?

Someone outside was sending me a message that I said something.  No, I was not trying to annoy anyone.  I just was reporting cuz it made me feel uncomfortable.  They keep acting like I need to be punished and making me feel indecent.  How do I know who sent the message?

Problem

They keep making me feel like I'm bad and "can't have 'what I want.'"  Like it's crazy.  Crazy to want something, a certain something, without good reason.

Irritated

I think they are extending the experiment to next door picking at me for something.  I hear their vent went on just now..  They are always outside to stimulate me when I go out.

cont.

"I know saying I don't wanna be like someone 'magically' means I will be more like them," but I don't wanna totally honestly be like that person.  They've been suggesting it a lot and in ways I don't like, and it seems they could do it.

Apology

I had a panic attack and didn't know what else to say nor if it were really bad.  About not wanting to be someone other than myself.  It's what I mean, I just can't figure out how else to say it.  Maybe, it takes too much time to figure out.  Anyway, I realized they said it inappropriately.  They said they wanted a game.  I feel a game going on.  Um.. I dunno, I don't like that I was put on the spot and inappropriately.

cont.

They keep saying bad things using this person.  It is not nice to the person.

cont.

And I had "missed a spot" not saving something..