After I said they can't go in and affect my life, they went in and said I could not have fun with the people watching me. I just said you can't come in my life and trim the good things off every once in awhile for no real good reason.
It is vague what they really just did, but I don't think I wanna ever think about such a waste as this. I'm not being mean saying the word "waste" and it is not a curse word nor buzz word.
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Saturday, March 7, 2015
Regarding me being upset specifically, you can't take away things from me, a good woman at age 28. All I did was say something to counter the mean treatment. I am not listening to you like you're the boss. You're barely a part of my life and can't just come in at your own convenience to hurt me emotionally and socially. I'm not letting that happen. I don't wanna fight you. I just want this to stop. These people keep talking to me in private, I know, and who knows what my dad will get involved in. I don't like what he did.
You're the one who attacked, and I think you're something like punished yourself. I didn't punish you, but you accept punishment from people other than me. I will not let things slide by like this on some days. My life is on a strict moral regiment. It'll be over before I know it, which must be partially happy news for you. Who knows, maybe ya'll even think it should end soon. That's the feeling I got from my dad, who's being like a guy who doesn't practice self-control in social life in secret, like you can't say oh he did this or that. He does it in secret message.
This is getting a bit painstaking if I have to talk about anything else much longer.
You're the one who attacked, and I think you're something like punished yourself. I didn't punish you, but you accept punishment from people other than me. I will not let things slide by like this on some days. My life is on a strict moral regiment. It'll be over before I know it, which must be partially happy news for you. Who knows, maybe ya'll even think it should end soon. That's the feeling I got from my dad, who's being like a guy who doesn't practice self-control in social life in secret, like you can't say oh he did this or that. He does it in secret message.
This is getting a bit painstaking if I have to talk about anything else much longer.
Maybe, I feared for the wrong person on the wrong side at the wrong time? I guess my dad is a danger and you were trying to deflect that. He has no right to pretend to punish me and acting like he didn't, like acting threateningly on a whim that I can't visit relatives up north. I know if I listened, he'd go more on a tangent telling me what to do when he can't. I wanted to go up north with him a few times but chickened out. He didn't force me to go, tho, nor say then that anything was wrong. You know, he almost pushed his oldest younger sister off a counter or table or something when she was a baby. I feel iffy about if she thinks I'm being a good person in the secret messages via the experiment where people watch me and talk to me with little noises in my room and things.
OK, I'll just talk about it.
I notice you think you can come in my life and have people beat me for you to take away the things I like as a punishment when that isn't right, I'm too old for that, and I didn't do anyththing.
They attacked me and are getting back at me, like they're fighting. Problems happen all the time. How is this fair to me to clog up my life like this and make up things about what I really meant and when I take back things that seem to not have the desired effect or something?
I just don't see what's so fun about holding onto something that didn't happen.
Why is me saying this a deterrent?
I just don't see what's so fun about holding onto something that didn't happen.
Why is me saying this a deterrent?
Friday, March 6, 2015
Disagreement
Someone is being more disagreeable with me, like she has something to get back at. I said not to fight with me.
Issues of The Day
Before I go off and shower, I thought I'd leave the bait like animal who sits and waits for its prey!
My dream would be that people would possibly and and talk to me, but I know this gets out and people I know can read it and might think about it for when they see me.
Okay, 1st off, I'm not up for believing I am in trouble and am not sure what's going on. I do know that I cursed about the noises in my room, but a lotta people curse people out even.
I'm sorry about the complaining about someone. I'll try and not have that happen with anyone, no debating or anything. :/ Lotta other people have their say and the other has no strength to come back. People just attack me for no reason. They're all vague and pointing fingers around in the air.
I got wind of a yes or no from someone gyping me to look silly even talking about it. I will not live in a non-Democracy with this person risen to the top up to no good. See, can't I say that and not have someone take it the wrong way? What I mean is I don't need to be told I'm not all that and that supposedly I am now like everyone else when I don't wanna be. I know it's not good to bring up those things, but here it is. Maybe, this is just rubbish. I can't say nothing has been happening. It should not get in the way of my life, wondering if mentioning it in some way possible is okay. I can't make it seem all positive, and obviously neither can that person.
What else? My dad started driving to bonk my head on the way home. My speech was slurred after that. Um.. My dad never does that.
Yea, so my mom has been seeming like upset I made her sick. I think Orlando is the ultimate cause.
Um.. Sometimes, we think of funny things that make you think of things that you should not think just because of it.
About the car, someone else was in on it with my dad, so I don't know. It's probably a lotta people.
Also, why is my relationship off and on about someone else, like something that doesn't need to happen? I don't find this person to be totally with it. They seem a bit weird. More specifically, I find them other things I cannot describe. I posted something on my Facebook I can't find. I remember kinda what it was. I don't know if it's worth trying to explain. I'm upset I can't find it. Well, the person deleted it. I can't find it. She is being kinda unfriendly now because others made her. Now, that is not acceptable at all. What you think I am? I did find this person is trying to keep others from getting attention and for no good reason. Someone else may do this, but still same opinion. Why do I get the feeling people wanna play a game and say I'm insignificant and puny? I just try to be nice, but this person is trashing my dignity and reputation. I never started anything with this person. This person is becoming an adult. I don't mind if she has nothing to do with me for her own decision and good. I don't like other people totally cancelling out to the point that it's bad stuff against me, like "I'm getting attention that way." I see people are watching out to make sure everything she does can be better than me and that I become worse. Apparently, however, it's hard and they're having trouble. I mean, being snide is not nice. It's not right to chase me down like that. Like to make sure I become bad and sad when I try not to already even. That's not what's going on. Everyone is different, and there are ways you could be just like me but better, maybe, without bothering me. See, you don't even wanna be like me.
Well, for now that seems to suffice. I care about everyone and I care about people in need, as well. I will try to alter my life to become more aware of what I can be aware of, which will lead to other things.
If you want attention, reach for your dreams. We all can try and figure something out where we win.
My dream would be that people would possibly and and talk to me, but I know this gets out and people I know can read it and might think about it for when they see me.
Okay, 1st off, I'm not up for believing I am in trouble and am not sure what's going on. I do know that I cursed about the noises in my room, but a lotta people curse people out even.
I'm sorry about the complaining about someone. I'll try and not have that happen with anyone, no debating or anything. :/ Lotta other people have their say and the other has no strength to come back. People just attack me for no reason. They're all vague and pointing fingers around in the air.
I got wind of a yes or no from someone gyping me to look silly even talking about it. I will not live in a non-Democracy with this person risen to the top up to no good. See, can't I say that and not have someone take it the wrong way? What I mean is I don't need to be told I'm not all that and that supposedly I am now like everyone else when I don't wanna be. I know it's not good to bring up those things, but here it is. Maybe, this is just rubbish. I can't say nothing has been happening. It should not get in the way of my life, wondering if mentioning it in some way possible is okay. I can't make it seem all positive, and obviously neither can that person.
What else? My dad started driving to bonk my head on the way home. My speech was slurred after that. Um.. My dad never does that.
Yea, so my mom has been seeming like upset I made her sick. I think Orlando is the ultimate cause.
Um.. Sometimes, we think of funny things that make you think of things that you should not think just because of it.
About the car, someone else was in on it with my dad, so I don't know. It's probably a lotta people.
Also, why is my relationship off and on about someone else, like something that doesn't need to happen? I don't find this person to be totally with it. They seem a bit weird. More specifically, I find them other things I cannot describe. I posted something on my Facebook I can't find. I remember kinda what it was. I don't know if it's worth trying to explain. I'm upset I can't find it. Well, the person deleted it. I can't find it. She is being kinda unfriendly now because others made her. Now, that is not acceptable at all. What you think I am? I did find this person is trying to keep others from getting attention and for no good reason. Someone else may do this, but still same opinion. Why do I get the feeling people wanna play a game and say I'm insignificant and puny? I just try to be nice, but this person is trashing my dignity and reputation. I never started anything with this person. This person is becoming an adult. I don't mind if she has nothing to do with me for her own decision and good. I don't like other people totally cancelling out to the point that it's bad stuff against me, like "I'm getting attention that way." I see people are watching out to make sure everything she does can be better than me and that I become worse. Apparently, however, it's hard and they're having trouble. I mean, being snide is not nice. It's not right to chase me down like that. Like to make sure I become bad and sad when I try not to already even. That's not what's going on. Everyone is different, and there are ways you could be just like me but better, maybe, without bothering me. See, you don't even wanna be like me.
Well, for now that seems to suffice. I care about everyone and I care about people in need, as well. I will try to alter my life to become more aware of what I can be aware of, which will lead to other things.
If you want attention, reach for your dreams. We all can try and figure something out where we win.
My Reaction
I was sad and upset and don't really wanna hear from untamed people what they think of the word I thought of someone used. They were messing with my mind, like I couldn't ignore it. Sure, you can reassure someone else that they are loved, not really a punishment and I don't need one..
I know you like a check in.
2 things.
I thought of a word someone used, and my mom wants to mess with our relationship with a creative excuse. I don't even care about that word. She was messing up my thoughts and tho she fed it to me too I learned not to go with bad thoughts and to relax outta fighting.
I was upset at someone for hurting me for fear they will be hurt by people who just hurt people. I don't mean it, but I detest the situation and am trying to ignore it.
So, no, I do not want for either thing to have happened and hope things don't happen like this in the future.
I thought of a word someone used, and my mom wants to mess with our relationship with a creative excuse. I don't even care about that word. She was messing up my thoughts and tho she fed it to me too I learned not to go with bad thoughts and to relax outta fighting.
I was upset at someone for hurting me for fear they will be hurt by people who just hurt people. I don't mean it, but I detest the situation and am trying to ignore it.
So, no, I do not want for either thing to have happened and hope things don't happen like this in the future.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Does anyone ever bother you?
All the time. They make fun of my relationships, like I have any, how immature. Strangers, some people who came into my life/Facebook.. People just spot me out and I get sent some secret messages, somehow.
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Also, there are people watching me in my room controlling how the computer loads to send nasty secret messages.
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Also, there are people watching me in my room controlling how the computer loads to send nasty secret messages.
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