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Orlando is droning on how I can't have a relationship.  Someone did disappear in my life because of this foolishness.  No, I don't know who all is really doing it.  More like 2 people.  Wow, to you, people are just monkeys jumping on a bed!

Someone is a bit weird about my dad, a bit of a nuisancy.

Why does everyone have to be such crackers, whatever that means to  you?  Lemmee see what they did about that..   Well, to me it means something that's okay.  We need more terms like that.

some nice Wiki meanings  :)

What exactly is it to you?  Some unfortunate mishap that could have been saved on your part?

It has surfaced

no one wants me to live this life.

Police are such cows.

No one said I couldn't talk to strangers.  I'm an adult!

About moving my chair.  It was them funning I couldn't have a relationship.  I wanted to go outside before that but too cold.  SO WHAT.  Jail me, but quit bothering me!

1 thing I forgot to mention..

..I moved my chair.

OK, time to talk.

Why is this nonsense still coming up?

Please.  Help.

I just don't want these weird punishments.  I chose to make a "public" display.  All I did was say, "Why are you looking at me?"  I could hit something really angry.  Does not mean I give up relationships.  You cannot arrest me for blinking.

I'm tired of this unfair weirdness in my life every day.  I can do what I chose to do with my life.

Someone certainly got in my life.

My Day

I think I will take my 1st college math class (I was in one before but didn't finish) in the summer.  I think I can handle 2 during the regularly timed semester.  I want 1 to be science..

So, something I should probably tell you.  I was at the psychiatrist office, and my mom driving me there kept thinking I had to be like my dad in a disgusting way.  Later on, she acted like this was a deliberate message of punishment, ruining my school life and everything.

In the office, she sat away from the spot I chose, where we usually sit.  Someone came in and scuffled like saying, "So, that's the daughter."  I didn't like that.  I scuffled my own shoes, and then she acted all tacky and triumphant like she knew what I did and who I was and that I couldn't have it, when she herself sent a message by scuffling.  The husband looked at me smiling, and I just looked back and said why are you looking at me.  Later on, a family sat behind me and was saying how I could not have a relationship.  I moved my chair up in annoyance and finally moved over.  Then, the youngest, a boy, looked at me, and I was listening to music and asked why.

My psychiatrist got mad when I told him he misdiagnosed me and kept speaking out against me and saying how my parents didn't have to support me.

Apologizing, Not Begging

I'm sorry I was so upset today.  I tried to not be.  I got some threats that bothered me.  Anyway, it's off to bed.  Not sure if I shoulda mentioned the threats.  At least not like that.

Apology

I didn't know that saying "sh" before part of someone's name was so offensively shocking.  It was in a story.  There was no telling what I meant.  I would do that in a real story, but since this is online and about someone else I did have faint thoughts of disclaiming it as not an insuult.  I guess I figured they'd know I have nothing against them and that it was a joke.  I just didn't know.  I was upset it was considered an insulting thing and to explain slipped my mind.  How would I ever know all these little annoying things would be seen as taking out funning and pleasure against someone?  I had a feeling people would know what I meant.  How would I know?  I thought it sounded cute.  I know now and won't do it.  I even thought of one for me Christina Shitstina.  I almost cursed awhile ago, TBH (to be honest..)  It doesn't bother me if it's just in fun.  I didn't really mean it personally.  It was just a story.  I thought it was.. guess I got caught up in things.  I didn't mean it in an insult in any way.  It shocked me the way this cute trick came out.  I should have picked a new letter combination.  How about like Christina Ristina.  People are finding damage in what I write like I'm making some sort of pattern, but I'm not.  I don't see anyone else out here writing so much that they will get caught.  This is dangerous.  You should not assume that these things are catch phrases when they need to be used for other purposes.  It can get in the way, when you do things like this.  No one will know what to do.  I guess I cannot apologize enough in others's opinions yet still.  I didn't mean anything.  How can I say I'm sorry?  I just picked a weird thing to say just to see if it was okay?  I could not think.  I could have used it on someone else and it'd go.

Why I Said It This Time

I dunno, it seems a permanent part of my life.  Talking it out, it may not help.  It seems some people went wild about me being online and are pinpointing fault in me.

I just felt really bad, that's all.  I like the person.  I just don't like the message others are giving me.  My parents didn't care if I stomped growing up, except probably moreso in public.  They don't like me throwing things.  The world is just so agitated and hectic.

I find what is going on to be suggestive.  I feel even threatened.  I cannot pay for all this.  People are being mean to nice people to hurt me, too, "instead" of just me or with whatever applied to them.

What It Is

Someone keeps posting on my page on Facebook just to secretly annoy me.  I liked someone from Australia, but someone else from there who's weird keeps posting there.  I bet someone else is getting affection.

Problem

They are going back and misanalyzing my past.  I can hit stuff if I wanted without worrying about being punished.  Shouldn't the bad feelings only come naturally?  What business is this of yours?  I'm too old for anyone to judge me and punish me.  I'm only supposed to get kindness at this age and level of maturity.  You shouldn't be making me mad.  If you heard torturing noises and your parents wouldn't stop bugging you in secret, what would you do?  Call the police?  They would ruin the experiment!  These are the things that make me wanna m*********, probably.  No one seems to care, except people who can't do anything unless I post it here.  They keep doing things and I can't write them all down.

Apology

Do what ya'll must, I am so sorry.  For getting upset and being crazy if it happened.. I tried not to post that.  Some of the things made sense, but it's not a normal thing to talk about.  Maybe, there are other things I did not talk about.