They won't stop and pushed me away to someone in a way I don't like.

I thought I heard someone dancing and jiving to dividing up my head into a few parts rather than being a single entity.

Upset

I am upset that things didn't go right it seems recently when I see my dad and come in sorta ready but then I'm not.

Yup

They won't stop.

Problem

As I turned my computer off, I realized they had made the wait symbol on a still page and made a movement for a personal flair, fyi probably someone else thinking they can be my mom instead because I need an older mom but in a bad way, like I "need" it.  I dunno, I was going to watch TV, and it bothered me.  They'll do something else again, but at least you know they're doing it.  I know why they do it again, too.  Someone wants it like that.

Also, it takes awhile to load the page to post to my blog, and I don't know why.

Pathetic

My dad reached over and said I couldn't do something in a relationship with someone secretly and I automatically thought of a carton version of cutting it off.  He did it on purpose to copy his mom's strategy.  I kept thinking of him to leave me alone with his problems always testing me by insulting me in secret message, acting now like the experimenters do stuff for him and "it's okay."  He has nasty thoughts about people who really nice to me.

So, what is his problem?  Is it pathetically that one thing I did when I was 11?  That's not okay.  I want my life back.  I don't want him in it like that like before.

Another Joke

It's sad to joke about something like being a daughter.  I should not be too important, but sometimes he initiates weird thoughts for some reason, that don't make sense, like I'm important but I think I'm not.

There were 2 things, but now I just remember 1.  My dad should not feel bad about - oh I remember - joked about being insignificant even if he does something I hate.  Also, the joke about how my mom and I both had cancer but not him, it was bound to come to mind.

Wai Wai Wait

I walk in everyone beats me up emotionally and if one bad word flares up as an idea I can't have something?  How is that to treat a lady?

They messed up my drawing/writing things.

When I said small, shoulda said babyish.  Sorry..

They had someone say in a tacky small way, "You can NEVA perform with him."

There's always that danger in me.  What to do?

My dad is inflicting bad feelings in me.  They made me think of a bad word.  He asked how long something takes in symbol of waiting for a no because of them, because of him, I'm stuck with him as having been in my life like that.

I'm sorry you saw me vicious, but you might see me get upset again.  I was just upset at having to report all these things and was also confused as to solving the original problem of everyone else saying people deserve d**** for what they did.  Are you afraid I'd go down that route?  I'm not.  I just felt offended and the thought came up.  Maybe, I shouldn't have said I meant it.  I did temper the idea and do it on myself.  I dunno what to do.  I can't just go around never thinking of anything that isn't just "happy happy joy joy."  This is where some of you people out there have a real problem.  This is what happened.  It's like I said later, something came up and the negativity made me feel at ease tho I didn't mean it, was worthless.  Just like a settling thought ot end.  Sorry!  I did ask for help..

saying it's like my dad.. I don't want him in my life like that

Now, they're dissing the supposed kids they're not supposed to be pretending.

These messages aren't stopping.  I didn't want my dad involved with someone who doesn't even like me pretending I have kids.  If someone else wants my mom to pretend they have kids is up to them.

I showed my parents my clean room and my dad coughed and touched my Nutcracker claiming he needed to switch something in the garage.

The name implies someone I will remember, the ice cream cone, for a long time.  That's very hurtful.  I still stand by that I was been mean to and needed a release with others not just them doing it and not me.