I feel I have a responsibility to this blog. Can't we say what I do wrong before and separate from now? I just feel so tested. I don't think it's right. I wouldn't do it.. It looks weird. I feel they already decided I was rebellious in quiet way, but it doesn't matter and I'm not. What is going on? I'm just asking what's going on, not like saying it weirdly. I'll just try again. I need some outlet. Seems it's this problems blog.
So, I will try not to run into bad thoughts. I found that to be a problem today. I was doing laundry and was criticizing people in my head.
Hm, Anger Management is on. I shouldn't take this seriously. I took it too seriously.
It's rather sad how I went insane a little when I came home tonight. You can just forget about me and my foolishness. I wonder how I can be a help. 1 thing I know is I can do the towels, too. Dishes. Not much to do. I can sing on video for the kids to look me up. Fun for me. I wonder if there is real volunteer work I can do that would lead to money, like helping with poor and war.
I feel it is so hard to function and when I get upset sometimes. I don't wanna get mad at people. I am sorry I did. I think I was mad.
I can get my Gramma a card.
"Don't let your past get in the way of your future." They just said that on TV. Credit doesn't matter. I have bad credit so it's hard to move.
What else? That was a good session. I wonder if IMDb will be a good influence. Only place where people are there often. I just feel I am in trouble for life no matter what I do and it could spark anger in me of the guilt, you know? Just for things I list on my site.. Not sure how bad. People said I was good mostly. That's just a few things not like big violent things all the time with a big attitude. I am so careful. I am good, too. I am serious about things that need to be serious about. I tried to change finally and be a bit more friendly, too.
Things may go wrong, I hope not, here I go. I am getting better at ignoring. I hope I don't get crazy minus the any reason why. It is too late, so I must just be helpful. I think I am in trouble for wanting to be left alone, need to be gentle around my mom with cancer. I am a bit weird and stuff and need to stop. If they say I'm someone else, so be it. There probably is a reason.
So, I hope that I do good work in how I act and whatever else I do. I do want a place in life in a career. I wish we would help people more. Maybe, I should read the military. And the poor. Spread awareness. It's interesting. Also, tho, you never know what's not even on this earth. There could be problems in other parts of the universe.