I should just be happy.  I mean, it should like, how would you say it, "go over my head?"  I am so happy, but I wonder what that punishment thing is.  Cuz I'm fat?

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Apologetic

It cleared the way for a good evening.

I guess I did the right thing.

I said I wasn't mad at someone.

I should have overcome.

Apology

Sometimes, when I'm alone, I'm a little stupid, like I'm running out of ammo or something.

These people in my room are so mean.  I was thinking that these messages must all be suggestions.  I don't like a bad relationship via my parents.

Please stop.

They have a "stupid question."  No, I don't mean anything against anyone.  I'm just saying what they're doing to me.  Trying to make me feel like I'm bad.

Sorry

My parents came in.  My mom was acting weird about my chicken I cut up.  Then, my dad, and I felt uncomfortable.  He understands that..

Problem

My mom was kidding around again, she's like "2 days" like I'm punished, acting dumbfounded.  My dad has a useless, annoying thing about 1 day he acts like.  I don't do anything.  If I don't wanna talk to my parents a certain way and too much is up to me.  So, I barely did anything, and my mom did that.  I live with them.  She was pretending she was being cute and that someone else told her to tell me that.

Someone just took a dump on me.  Threatened me again.  Bet it won't stop.  But they think someone said it I don't want to say it moreso.  No one cares about the wrong things others say.  I don't listen to it.  Why are you slowly giving me these messages?  It seems pointless for my life, at least.  My life was stolen from me 10 years..

Is this a slip of the tongue in the process?  It's not fun being tested like this by all these people.  I just said no, that's the answer.  You said  you were doing it just to test me.

So, to clarify

I have to say no to the marshmallow thing going on forever.  It's wrong, and I didn't curse at anyone nor get mad.  Well, maybe a bit upset.

I was wondering who all did it.  Supposedly, just happened.  It seems mean, even if you think I got upset in the wrong way for something else.  It's very annoying.  It's like it won't stop.  Everyone's doing it.

I would not think something silly like I am bad to say this.  I am merely reporting and giving my opinion.  It seems serious and important.  We just had to waste a few days.  So, what, that's life, right?

cont.

I noticed they don't act nice for the other person but are being mean to me now.  Like Heathens with their mouths open and teeth bared making hissing noises bouncing around.  Why do I keep seeing this image, anyway?  Right now, there are 3 or 4..

Chasing & Flooding

It seems if I post that someone did something they chase after me.  They keep on saying something.. rubbing it in.  It shouldn't be so.  It's about how in liking others that I already have 2 parents.. I also live with them.  I just wanted to report it.  I am not gonna fight or whatever.  Everyone knows it's wrong.  It was okay to say, but someone/people are incessantly threatening me.

Also, everyone keeps acting like I'm a marshmallow when I go out.  People were acting like I wasn't white at Christmas at the movies, and it was funny I figured they were all the s word, tho I wouldn't do it again unless I lost my mind or thought it was funny again for some unknown reason.  It probably reached other parts of the country and world.  So, I won't curse, but no I do not take that whoever started it.  People are uncomfortable.  I see there could be a reason, and I could let it slide.  I think it's a bit dangerous.  Is it for m********ing?  I'm sorry about that, but I mean that was supposedly a private thing, my therapist even told me.  Someone has to m********* and then something like this that has no ending known when I got out?


Also, last night I explained I didn't want anything against the person concerning the 1st thing.  I can't believe I don't go over and make sense to anyone.

Am I Mad

Not at the person I'm talking about.

I'm not mad at anyone I know of.

I just noticed I was being mistreated.  I can't get people to stop treating me like I'm not white for real, no matter who started it, and people won't leave me alone morally.

I can see that all the innocence is saved up for this person, whom I in a way have nothing against.  She just sits there, basically, and waits for her turn to build up while my life seems to be wasting away in that light.  Maybe, you can sleep on a stone floor, but I chose not to.  I'm not trying to make a fight with any person.  Why am I saying this?  Because it's important!  It's serious!  I'm not trying to fight.  I'm just talking like a normal person.  I was doing what you just did.  Trying to make a point using things that happen to be disagreeable.  It was a smart revelation that other people would like to talk about, maybe not you individually all of you.  Lotta people, tho.  I am not the odd one out who does not participate in the nature of my own problems.  I am sorry if I am just a failure and disagreeable.  I didn't say I was fighting..  I just mean it's good to notice.  It might even be important, and for some reason it can go on this blog.

Time to Talk?

There's this person who just goes online and says anything and it's okay.  I sit here putting up with this mess.

I found these people are literally taking a dump on me.  Oh, and they are threatening me.

Look, who's doing this new stuff now?  Whatever was said, I can see they are playing around on my part like bullies.  I realize everyone is against me and everyone knew about it.  What of it?  For this spinoff it was 2 things that made for an interesting way to continue a message.  They really are mean to me in private.  They are saying things in bad ways.  I don't wanna put up with this.  No one else does.   I'm just saying what they did and my opinion.  You already did what you did.  Now, they are teasing me for posting about this.  It's incessant.  You might think it's a simple message, but I have a dangerous person/people in my life.

How out of place..

to say "in my face?"  No, I obviously don't mean it that way if you happen to know anything about me.  I don't know what to do.  This is serious.

Why are you making me look bad?  You keep rubbing something in my face that's serious.  It wasn't right or this time was weirder/superfluous, but I don't wanna fight anyone, and I don't "dislike" anyone.

Point being.. I don't want to say anything out of place, whatever just happened.

So, here's to say sorry.  I guess the details were to identify the issue.

I think I'm at risk

I never get treated right.  I am at risk of thinking nothing matters, like morally.

Not trying to fight, but I mean what I mean.  If I have a hard time explaining something unimportant does not mean I will listen to old ladies that "it must be related" into trouble for me, like being in trouble.  This comes up with everything all the time.

I am officially worried.

I am being prodded about things that make me mad.  Anything could come.

They are attacking me again.  They won't stop!

I came up with that it's not some drama including me between my Gramma and people who don't know me well in my extended family.

My dad has destroyed my relationship opportunities.  Admit you fell for it.

Problems

THEY WON'T STOP.

They keep making my mouse show up the hourglass sign randomly.

Problem

THEY  KEEP BOTHERING ME.

They made a video not play right in the news on my tablet.

Problem

My dad was feeling bad and got so nasty in thoughts I had to leave the table and brought my "crackers" with me, my dried up Triscuits.

I was thinking for him to stop mediating my relationships.  Don't listen to other people on what to say to me.

I'm really sorry I was so mad and get so often confused and sometimes things come oue that shouldn't have been.  Please, find someone else to talk to you like.

I am sorry for my bad behavior.  I need to calm down and accept it but yea avoid it.

So

What you want me to talk to you?  Why are people doing all this disciplining on me?  My dad can't have done it.  And you're doing it for no good reason.

What are you doing?

This is not nice.  My dad supposedly didn't do it.

Important

This is an important blog to have.

Problem

I feel if I make one mistake for no good reason - and maybe it wasn't wrong - someone is over my shoulder silently cursing me.  I am constantly interacted with with these people for others's likings in a mean way.  They say they proved they care, but this is too much.  Cursing doesn't really help.

Apology

I don't mean to say someone is annoying so much as I feel uncomfortable about what they're doing, like others deserve to live but I don't because of the curse words I used but not like to disfigure their emotional sense of being.  I thought I was trying not to curse at them.  I see I have my parents online, but I was so worried I'd curse about someone not online.  It was like a safety buffer.  I eventually overcame it, but it took a long time or too long for its likings.

The people where I live are bothering, too.

These people watching me are really bothering me and so is another person who I don't know what they're doing in my life.

Someone is spreading apart liking things on my page like stalking me.  Another person from the experiment probably tho.

Now, someone made the big change dieting now.  My dad about to go all the way.  Yea right.

OK I know there are people out there bothering me.

Problem

Someone posted on Twitter early today, too, and sponsored a message from someone they are acting like is better that we have to remember or could, probably from someone else.  See, that is a problem.

So, they did it on purpose against me to annoy me, how pathetic.  What can you do about this?

I bet it's something creative to get something going.  This is a person in all of our lives's, tho.  Dunno why they would do that now and not before.

Well, what happened was..

..I didn't think I could keep on submitting to the illusions to someone hurting me and bossing me around.  I didn't really know what the thing was.  So, I just gave an innocent report, so I thought.  A little opinion but not crazy like in the kitchen.  I was probably from a friend and something to forget about concerning them..

Problem

They keep trying to talk to me every little chance I get.

Problem

They said I was not up with pleasure.  What is all this new taboo on me for?  You didn't say that would happen.

That's okay if you don't wanna talk to me.

I guess someone doesn't care if someone is insulting to them.

Last Night

My dad was tired.

What I thought was his prodding of this person being better I would not tolerate along with from someone else.  My life, my right.  How pathetic.  I said sorry, tho I did not need to in some/most all ways.

Wanna go back to bed.

Pathetic

I heard 1st I think my mom making a hysterical loud noises and I just came out the bathroom and heard my dad cough, home early.  Now, vaccuuming.  Leave me alone!

Yet again, those people are trying to talk to me via when my computer loads, in  mean way!

What should I do?

I didn't ask to talk about this.  I don't want be in trouble for telling.  I feel a responsibility.  I don't want this to be a thing going.  How can I stop this??  It's in it in nature.

Why post anything like that?  The opportunity to tell is not always at hand.  I guess it's the nature of things.  You're either at a message board or you're not.

Problem

The only reason I wouldn't tell would be inconvenience.  So, what?  People underneath are mean to me and yell, as well.  It just perked me up.  I don't like this trick.  I wanna watch some TV and go to bed!

Problem

They were obviously playing around and there are lots of things that go with this, but they made my computer take longer to shut down.  They also reminded me to turn on the TV.  They apparently got a person brought up.  They turned off the vent with a creepy, irritating personal message.  Look, I can say if something happened.  You already did it.  I'm not cursing at you or anything.  Why do I need to say?  Well, I can't say.  I just say.  Look, I won't bribe with anyone so you can feel lazy/lethargic/laid back.  I didn't like the 2nd message they gave me, too.  I don't believe it.  No one is gonna listen to people like that.  I'm sorry if that's your social oasis.  You can't just keep quiet for no reason.  It's about saying and doing the right things.  Silence can be a sin.  My internet went off, too.  Something happened again.  Look, I'm not trying to attack you.  I just wanna post something that in the end made me uncomfortable.  No one can tell people who love me what to do cuz they wanna mangle with the situation.  I can't get this to stop.  These are the signs you look for.  I didn't say anything wrong, but let me know what went wrong.  I say what happens.  There are no exceptions.  I didn't curse at anyone nor behave inapporpriately at least for the situation.  Can you explain to me when to be silent?  All I did was state the facts and add my opinion.  You can't live in fear.

If anyone wants to forget about me and needs a break is fine with me.

Have fun with the people you have fun with.

I am very sorry.

I want what makes you happy.

Most important..

..is also the people it could affect that if I talk to.

Amen.

Wow a complicated mess I got into tonight.  I'll have to get better at ignoring and not being crazy.  I can feel I've set myself that way, but why do these mistakes keep coming up?  I usually do have some consciousness for what's going on, but people want me to just go thru life doing nothing but smile.

There's seriously someone threatening to hurt people I know.

To Whom?

To those it must have bothered.

Apoogy

I don't know what to be sorry for except I could not help feeling crazy.  I do think about the wrong things people do, but I don't like to get into it in a bad way.  I feel someone put that in my mind.

So, sorry, for what, for being so crazy.  I did not mean to be mean, but I did recieve a mean message mixed with something important, which I find inappropriate.

Problem

They keep being mean to me.  They said "Vietnam" and I heard a car far away sound like it or so.

Apology and ..?

I was thinking how crazy I was.  They tried to punish me by playing with how to say "t."  They made it sharp and unattractive.  Someone does things like that, and I don't think it's right, get mad when someone tries to be sorry for something that isn't that bad of them but of others.

I wanted to pretty much think they exaggerated the truth and were simply appalled I was not feeling submissive.  I do NOT mean any harm to anyone.

Problem

They are messing with me.  Someone posted a lot around my post on the Dr. Phil Facebook page.  I bet it's just so no one can understand what I posted.  Some weird, annoying people online..

It might be set up.  If Dr. Phil likes it, then so be it.  I don't think anyone would, tho, which is why I point it out.

I already was ready for it not to be all about me.

Is anyone leaving my family alone?

It's not something to really talk about.

I don't mean to be mean, but someone got me mad about someone.  Do I need to think out loud?

What a waste of my life.  These people keep making annoying noises in my room!

I think things that are asked and then you act like I did something else, and I didn't.

Why are people mad at me now?  I explained someone was joking with me cuz they think I'm bad and they aren't supposed to be allowed to do anything to me.

I guess you don't think I was talking around something but about it.  Why is that?

I'm not listening to all these mean people.  They snuck in a suggestive message again.  What a waste of my life.  No, I am not thinking to "ruin 'a moment'" for anyone.  I'm thinking of  what's gonna happen.  I heard a sneakiness with it.  I said I wasn't sending a message about it.  It so happens to happen.  I am a good person.  You don't have the right to judge otherwise.

You don't have the right

to tell me what's right and wrong.

Who has the right

to dig in my personal info. and send secret personal messages of discomfort?

I am only mad at

or at some moments that people waste my life and put someone in my place and make others do it.  That's sneaky.  If my dad didn't just rub something in, I wouldn't get to say this.  Why make me mad and ruin everything?   I can't think all these things without processing them, neither.

cont.

Why won't people accept I did not just think something I am should not?  Sometimes, we think some people are mean to us.  Then, the thought happens.  Do you know anyone who just doesn't seem to think about anything?  They seem to keep it private!  I know it was not perfect, but maybe I just feel like a loser.  I wasn't in anyone's way.  I guess they just dug in a little deep.  That's fine.  I know they said it with a swing.  I guess I am over it, but I don't accept what seemed like an insult.  Why do things happen like this here in Orlando?  I was fine in Louisiana.

Funny

I have to receive all these messages.  I figured I should be nice to people, even though there are people horsing around with me.  I should know some are really nice?  What happened to the others?  I don't seem to have anything going for me cuza one person.  I don't want to be put out and ruin something and ruin something for someone.  I don't wanna hafta worry about what Dad will think next day..  I'm not "in the social situation."  Yes, I was nice to my dad.  I am so sorry, but I mean I am a person and people all get even viscious.

My dad kept coughing that someone else gets someone and I don't.  I had to think about it, but it was not a holistic process.  I wasn't "talking to anyone."  I guess someone or some people think I'm not that good when they were the ones who were mean to me for no reason so I could not win at life.

And they acted like they never said that so as not to feel guilty.

I'm about to shower up and watch TV, but I feel more tired now.  The shower will wake me up, and I can watch TV.

I don't wanna fight with anyone, but I have a deep-seated issue and feel this is going on and on for everyone.  I just had to process it or something.  I was in the middle of eating and cleaning up the kitchen.  I wasn't posting online! for Pete's sake.

It was pretty rude what my dad was thinking.  He is trying to ruin my relationships.  Blame him if anything just went wrong.  I feel a loss of thought, feeling, and control in my life.  People all act like they know all about me and act meanly whenever they feel they have to.

I just heard a noise in the kitchen and I don't like how part of my forehead just felt.  I was about to suck back in, and now I can't.

They are bothering me again.

I don't want anything to happen to me cuza my dad.

I'm tired of them deciding how the page loads and am upset I might not like them doing this.  It happens all the time I load a page.  It makes me think of a message each time.

These people following me are being mean to me.

I guess I just didn't direct it at anyone when I felt I had the right to use that word.  No, I don't care what you think.

So, I see I said the N word back, but so what?  I didn't say who it was to.  Who cares?  That's the past.  They deserved it!

Problem

They are still messing around with me.

It's not that I hate the people.

I know they are trying to hurt me.  Who?  Dunno.  Not trying to hurt me?  Maybe, just trying to be suggestive and then getting me when I defend myself.

Problem

I think people have a problem with me.

They are messing with me on my Facebook.  2 people being creepy.  1 person I wanted to turn to now just deleted who I met online.

They are like massively trying to get themselves across to me, suggesting I fit in with them while others are not and not to be involved.

They are suggesting I'm not perfect like Jesus.  Or, things in my past scare them.  Or, they all have a problem with me cursing at noises in my room for awhile in my past.

Apology

I don't mean for anyone to pay attention to me, but I am sorry I get upset.

Technically, looking for appropriate relationships is something I'm a bull after.

Online Stalking

You already done and did yo' damage, people or who all done it?  I can say what needs to be said to online stalking..  I see you talk to me and don't wanna.

These people are creepy.  That does not mean someone else is.  You can tell when someone is not coming from somewhere.

What do I do about online stalking?  It's not serious enough to make a case -on TV.

Problem

They keep wasting my time talking to me with how they load the page.

Upset

Tho I started exercise, I said something about the word pleasure once.. and cannot feel Space Mountain.

So, 1st, they were mean to me at the other community college.  Now, they have to cut courses at the other.  So, what, they were being mean to me.  You can't just do whatever you want to ruin my life.

So..

They had to apparently cut ballet and class athletics at a community college I wanna go to.

It has Music Education.  I don't know if I'd have time, anyway with the bus transportation and don't really know of a weekend class.  I need time to myself, too.

form yesterday

I have a freedom to do what I want.

I have a freedom to do what I want.

If in my past I thought all these racists were "s***" does not mean you can be mean to me whatever you want.  Yes, it was Christmas.

Problem

So, people I care about supposedly send me the negative messages, and it tends to make me feel badly.  I try to get over it and even figure it out.  I just feel that other person is making this happen, too, and I have to also forget about that person or to some degree.

Problem

These people controlling how the page loads on my computer are so annoying and mean and I can't stand it.  They are not a friend.

Problem

This person keeps being mean to me.  I was cursing at the noises in my room, and they supposedly did it.  It's so annoying, putting up with this person.  They just keep annoying me.  I think it's wrong.  So, what, they didn't even say stop cursing.  I was cursing about the noises.  Maybe at them sometimes but usually blotted out and not to harm them.

They are like attacking making sure I can't have fun with others.  They are hurting anyone like who is important who likes me.

Problems

Someone won't stop being mean to me, simply.  They supposedly fessed up to putting annoying noises in my room all day.  I was upset each day, and when I stopped they started work at being mean to me.

Who do you think made Bath & Body works stop selling fancy body scrub?

Everyone keeps mimicig me as a tacky person as a toddler.

This someone is being mean to people who are nice to me.

The people experimenting on me are being unkind and freaking me out and no no one cares.  People are being silly, those people who tried to hook up with me in private.

Sorry, I do not mean to offend anyone.  It just seemed awkward, tho I was agreeing this 1 dude just kept at me.  The 1st wasn't really that fat.

A boy on IM said he was thinking about me all day I don't know well.  I had fat boys wanting babies with me, too, today.