I thought of something bad sorta on autopilot to my dad. I don't mean it, but it helped quell my anger. Same about the people experimenting on me but not as bad. I'm very sorry and would like real help to get better, not "I can't be happy/okay about myself for a day." That will happen every day by accident if I'm treated so badly.
They are acting mean but like someone, too, which is the thing they started when I woke up and was waiting for breakfast. I said not to fight me and not to invade my life, but they refuse to listen. They again think they have something on me, but I think/feel I have something on them for sending mean secret messages. On my Facebook page, I said, "Please speak now or forever hold your peace." No one cares nor finds it, I bet. All I did was take off an outlet of them for communicating to me annoyingly that was unrelated. So what? I didn't do anything I shouldn't have. They did.. I did even take that back! At least the anger of it.