Superstitious like my Gramma and Aunt?

They are not to have a say in my life.

My other guess is everyone thinks he wants this and follows it, when he claims he's not but the next second he must be or is.

My dad has no say in my life!  No one does.

My dad does not have the right to be self-satisfied and try to prevent me from feeling now.

They just did something else that might add on to it.

Someone said the age of their child to annoy me so I'd count each year.  It's these people surrounding me getting antsy if I get upset.  I shared something my younger aunt shared.

The 1/2 screen shows still.

They did the long slender thing again.

I feel like a cancer patient being visited by a celebrity.

I'm so sorry I got upset today.

So because I got picked to do this, I have to be treated worse than others as payment?

Why do I find myself wanting relief from the blank shopping icon at the bottom of my screen?

Look

Sorry I was upset.

They had to tap in again.

They have to get a word in.  I wonder if they know my dad.

They're abusing me knowing what happens in  my life.

They are trying to tell me what to do/think and punish me.

They did more..

They're being mean to someone else by imprinting something long and thin.

LOOK

I WANT MY DAD OUTTA MY LIFE in this way

Problem

They hid the title of one of my posts on my regular blog.  They should be arrested

My dad is vulturing over relationships I make online and trying to make them all think twice about me being important.

Upset

I didn't wanna talk about something, but I wanted to address that something happened, tho I feel tested.

They keep going on like what they did was okay.

Stop threatening me.  You're the one being mean to me.

They made a silly thing with the mouse when it waits when I clicked on something.  They are full of themselves and displaying that.

They said it nastliy.

You're not here to tell people they can't have a way with me.

They won't leave me alone and quit saying I'm bad.

I'm not here to take you in stride.

Problem

The people watching me in my room are telling me about things I can't do.  Look, I didn't do anything.  People keep attacking me in my home.

Why are you talking to me about this stuff?

They said I did something.

Problem

They made my shopping icon a blank at the bottom of my taskbar.  They are trying to make me think of something and punish me for something else.  How annoying is that?

Apology

I'm sorry for what went wrong tonight.

Guess it was stupid to say and was slow to erase.

Game?

Not to say something?  I didn't say it.

Stop it.

I don't want to feel I did anything wrong.

WAH!

What if I hurt my mom?  She was probably pretending.

Prayers....

I was nice, but my mom was acting funnily.  I just don't feel good.  I think it's my dad's fault.  He just wants to rile things up.  What did my mom start?  She's afraid of what he thinks and is more assertive.

Another Solution

Try not to be as harmful when I blow up on the inside.

Also, someone crashed me and a thought without much restraint came back to me.

Issue

They are silly enough to believe I meant to call them shit.  No, I wasn't doing that.  You wish so you could be done with me more or less.

I don't want my dad to be a part of my life like this.  They are acting like they are raising me.  I don't want to pretend to do this.

More Problems

What if they have the power to take away parents and people from my life?

Worried

I don't wanna hurt my mom, but I'm not taking this.  She was inflicting decisions on me, and I'm mad about someone else attacking us.

Problems

Why did I get the message Ellen is mad at me for saying something?

My mom said in secret message about my possible future daughter, "There, I put her thru Hell."  I think my dad made my possible future so go, "Whoah!"

Anyway, I moved in a way that attacked my mom back cuz I am sick as Hell of writing about all this crap.  I was in the kitchen eating.  She also was like, "There," like I didn't do anything.  I already said I'm not doing this shit.

My dad left last night with the secret message he has to come back and surround me and "do it" with me, a bad feeling and idea.  He never came back.  My mom left now to show him something.

Do you know about when people "just care about themselves?"  Where did this come from?  I know I don't matter.  I don't think what I said makes no sense.  I don't know how you cut up and dice thoughts.  I feel it is a little inappropriate but for the "wrong" reasons.  Supposedly, something I said was hurting someone's feelings, something that other people thought, too, like we were yelling at them.  I said don't hold me to it and that it was an iffy topic.  I had to put in much effort to go and change it up further.

How cruel of you to go in and pretend to make my possible future kids's noses stretched out to wide and dislocated from their faces?  What are you?

So, you're mad..

..it's not because you're in a dilemma like my dad.

What someone did to me was very evil.  It seemed to spread like wildfire.

I didn't know what I said was so serious, but what about the other people who get to do that?  I bet even you all do that.

It still hurts.  I can very well take it back, as I said, was just a thought and not put to words on my blog.

I feel a couple people have trapped me in a dungeon with no success in the world.  It's like they threw me out there while I was still having a nightmare.

If what I said actually hurt this person, it makes it weird to me why she would hurt me in her own way.  You all are against me and don't care who I am.  Some of you all seem outspoken saying you said I was so great all my life but you take it back and say I'm tacky, shallow, ugly, and not smart.  Maybe, this is proof?  I guess the situation must have seemed overly serious.  Before, I don't remember doing this.  My dad may have been a negative influence.  Maybe, my mom is the one who isn't negative?  I feel we all have a negative side.  I don't usually think of these things.  My question was just what to do to see things in different ways, like what happened here.  We still haven't answered that.  I'm guessing other people are allowed to have those thoughts.  They probably come in on purpose on a regular basis and for no reason.  What about that person being mean to me?  That was my release.  I guess I'll do it natural now, but I think other people behind her back think that serves her right.  I hope it doesn't happen like this in the future, but I do have proof people are saying people deserve d**** who are mean to me.  I can't get mad cuz I know they are trying to temporarily stick up for me.  So, that's another confusing thing that happens.  I've never wanted to wish d**** on anyone.  I think I saw that no one cares about other people wishing d**** on someone but still my problem is bad, like maybe one day it would be that just like that.  I feel this is a bit uptight and picky to make a big deal on something without thinking about actually solving it.  The point is to see what matters, how someone's feelings really are.  It seems like it's to make sure someone, myself, gets it, as in being made to feel bad and punished.  Maybe, that's important.  It seems tho that people don't treat me right and will make me upset in some other way again.  With this other stuff that's been done to me, I won't simply sweep it under the rug nor out the door.  I feel I'm just constantly being tested, now to venerate this person.  I'll get into that in another topic.

So, I'm sorry and I certainly was ready to take it back.  I just wanted to know why other people can threat d**** and I can't seem to do anything but be placed down under, while I worry about being responsible for someone else being framed to look gaudy.

I hope people out there are feeling okay/alright.  I understand, some of ya'll aren't, but neither am I.  I feel uncomfortable with my parents/dad here in Orlando.  I don't know what's happening right now/next.  My dad is strangely in a better mood.  I hope he's alright.  He needs to hit the gym is what he needs to do.

So, I hope I don't cause trouble too much if at all, hopefully not.  Hope things are all going well for you all.  I hope this is a helpful alleviator and look into what not to do, which I figured out.  I just needed to not rest on a false idea.  I need to keep thinking to know where I'm really at, without creating trouble.  I can avoid it, as well.  I can try to take care of other people's issues, like making someone else look stuck up.

So, I hope this has helped.

I'm trying out to act and model..

.and I can't reload one of my pictures.

Problem

They are messing with me and how I feel in a place.  I don't have a problem, someone else is being mean to me and I'm not being mean to them.

How funny is it to just sit there bemused at someone while they kick you with the opposite of pity?  That's when the moments come up.  I see ignoring has done the trick.  Time apart and in help can be necessary.

Sometimes, I think of things when you tell them to me.  I don't give a care about hurting anyone.

I will not be able to forgive anyone for making me look bad if I think something you don't approve of or if it comes to mind.  You shouldn't always be knowing about me.  You have nothing to do with me.  My life is just your problems of wanting to be the baby.  I don't seem to talk about much else.

Problem

They made the page go black then white when I posted that.

My dad does whatever comes up to his mom, and she thinks if something happens around something else "it must be re-L-ated."

My dad was thinking of something I do with someone I like and acting mean with his arm and I just happened to think of like a cartoon cutting off his arm.  I didn't say anything nor at like much nor was he to be looking at me.

Later, last night, he came walking from far away, I think like he was all that coming to rescue me, then made me stimulated in that part and closed his bathroom door.

Problem

Someone called me "dear" on Facebook who annoys me and I just used the word "sweet."

I don't want 1 person missing.

My dad should not be necessary in my life if he thinks he can threaten everyone away from showing me affection in my personal life that has nothing to do with him in a way..

Why is everyone in the media acting like I need a lesson?  Who do you think I am and what do you think you're doing?

Problem

How is it spreading around that I'm bad cuz I hit something every day for a week when I was into being cool like Ellen with short blonde hair?  I am not gonna live without that cool stuff.  I earned it.  My hitting, so what, I was in my room, it was my sofa you were mad about hitting.  You don't have the right to ruin my life.  What's so bad about that?  I was mad at people.

I also just heard a commercial where someone acted like they imagined me mad at counselors at my community college.  It was so long and ranting.

I have lost respect for the things that are done against me by others who supposedly are caring.

You know, I just think you can't do that and that this situation is nothing like what you fabricate it to be.  I can't wait to see you lose it and get moody, again, yourself.  Why were you guys at me?!

Threats

I feel the topic of me d*ing is touched on in secret message by my dad and someone else.  Like, "Life's short."

They won't stop and pushed me away to someone in a way I don't like.

I thought I heard someone dancing and jiving to dividing up my head into a few parts rather than being a single entity.

Upset

I am upset that things didn't go right it seems recently when I see my dad and come in sorta ready but then I'm not.

Yup

They won't stop.

Problem

As I turned my computer off, I realized they had made the wait symbol on a still page and made a movement for a personal flair, fyi probably someone else thinking they can be my mom instead because I need an older mom but in a bad way, like I "need" it.  I dunno, I was going to watch TV, and it bothered me.  They'll do something else again, but at least you know they're doing it.  I know why they do it again, too.  Someone wants it like that.

Also, it takes awhile to load the page to post to my blog, and I don't know why.

Pathetic

My dad reached over and said I couldn't do something in a relationship with someone secretly and I automatically thought of a carton version of cutting it off.  He did it on purpose to copy his mom's strategy.  I kept thinking of him to leave me alone with his problems always testing me by insulting me in secret message, acting now like the experimenters do stuff for him and "it's okay."  He has nasty thoughts about people who really nice to me.

So, what is his problem?  Is it pathetically that one thing I did when I was 11?  That's not okay.  I want my life back.  I don't want him in it like that like before.

Another Joke

It's sad to joke about something like being a daughter.  I should not be too important, but sometimes he initiates weird thoughts for some reason, that don't make sense, like I'm important but I think I'm not.

There were 2 things, but now I just remember 1.  My dad should not feel bad about - oh I remember - joked about being insignificant even if he does something I hate.  Also, the joke about how my mom and I both had cancer but not him, it was bound to come to mind.

Wai Wai Wait

I walk in everyone beats me up emotionally and if one bad word flares up as an idea I can't have something?  How is that to treat a lady?

They messed up my drawing/writing things.

When I said small, shoulda said babyish.  Sorry..

They had someone say in a tacky small way, "You can NEVA perform with him."

There's always that danger in me.  What to do?

My dad is inflicting bad feelings in me.  They made me think of a bad word.  He asked how long something takes in symbol of waiting for a no because of them, because of him, I'm stuck with him as having been in my life like that.

I'm sorry you saw me vicious, but you might see me get upset again.  I was just upset at having to report all these things and was also confused as to solving the original problem of everyone else saying people deserve d**** for what they did.  Are you afraid I'd go down that route?  I'm not.  I just felt offended and the thought came up.  Maybe, I shouldn't have said I meant it.  I did temper the idea and do it on myself.  I dunno what to do.  I can't just go around never thinking of anything that isn't just "happy happy joy joy."  This is where some of you people out there have a real problem.  This is what happened.  It's like I said later, something came up and the negativity made me feel at ease tho I didn't mean it, was worthless.  Just like a settling thought ot end.  Sorry!  I did ask for help..

saying it's like my dad.. I don't want him in my life like that

Now, they're dissing the supposed kids they're not supposed to be pretending.

These messages aren't stopping.  I didn't want my dad involved with someone who doesn't even like me pretending I have kids.  If someone else wants my mom to pretend they have kids is up to them.

I showed my parents my clean room and my dad coughed and touched my Nutcracker claiming he needed to switch something in the garage.

The name implies someone I will remember, the ice cream cone, for a long time.  That's very hurtful.  I still stand by that I was been mean to and needed a release with others not just them doing it and not me.

You may be in danger if you listen to my dad and are mean to me.

I don't mean permanent estrangement, just in general.  That's how it was.  Things were better off that way in most ways.

My dad shouldn't even be in my life again.  He's being awfully mean with it.

Problem

My dad won't stop insulting in secret message, making sounds sound like words.

When will he and the people experimenting on me and watching me get it .. get what?  Something like that no one cares about your "important" insults.

I don't wanna be the loser with these mean people talking to me via people watching me in my room while the rest of the people I see all don't do it and think they're all that like I was.

I keep getting strangers who seem to communicate with people experimenting on me.  The 1st person who added me on this Google account is holding an ice cream cone like someone else was trying to look like someone but sending a mean message.  It made me think of something funny I think other people liked.  I was reluctant to put in this excessing effort to explain what happened to me.  It upsets me who mighta done these things, like I'm not important and someone else is more important in a strange way.  I dunno what was strange about it.  I think it's a Middle Eastern person, too.  I think it's the fact that it's a normal person involved and it's the only person in my Google circle.  I feel made fun of.  So what if I thought of something funny when someone was mean anyway?  It seemed like it needed to get out and other people do it, not to you, but between us!  I've even said that at the top of this blog.  I don't mean to be mean, but sometimes I'm not about some things.  I was worried why it seemed to make sense.  I just am getting irritated at anything from the experiment, preventing me from succeeding probably due to my dad.  I don't like how I am being held trapped by these mean people.  I don't have any privacy.  They'll start clicking.  Good for you.  I wonder if you "can't take a joke."  I dunno, I just noticed something and needed it because it was so mean.  I don't really get it.  It's not the fact that it's unsettling that makes me upset.  I just heard a noise, too.  I feel that my dad is making it so I can't function.  Also, we all need a little joke and it was not for you.  So, see if anyone can figure that out, a better alternative?  Don't you laugh at me a lot?  You do wrong things to me.  I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but I think maybe they are looking for too much pity from me.  So, I was already sorry and played the joke on myself.  Other people joke about d**** and get away with it.  It was more how I saw the mistake part.  It wasn't to hurt a tender spot or something.  I feel something bad coming on.  People just judge me and hurt me.  What's wrong now?  Is it something from the past?  Did you want an explanation?  I just am kinda fed up, maybe with this person..  So, I am sorry if anything was wrong.  Something wrong was done to me.  I was merely dealing with it.  I just heard another noise that says I can't have my race, if it's French part of it..  Look, I'm not listening to this.  I don't need to say it over and over again.  I'll post this somewhere.  As I was saying, it was not intended to hurt anyone and they were not who the release was for, but sorry and if anyone can fix it would be nice.  I thought that when I thought that.  Sorry!

How do you feel about k***ing people

just to annoy me?

I am sorry I must have offended suggesting people believed someone k***ed people.

They're being testy to me now about k***ing another old person.

You are bad, did you know that?  You have no right to do this to me.

Quit lying, I can say that this person has been creeping me out or others saying that people secretly d** for them, whoever had them do it.  These deaths in Hollywood are suspicious.  Something must be going on.

I am not a waste.  You can't say I grew up trasing my life.  You're just being sarcastic.  You threw away my life, teachers and my parents.  You made school worthless, and your kids are doing worthless things to me and saying I started this and I started that.

I just came to apologize, not collect you never ceasing unfairness to me cuz you're just racist and irratical.

Don't tell me I did anything.  They just blurted out a date, too.  What if I thought of it then?  This never happened before.  You said that to think it on that date.

Quit pushing me over and manipulating my life.  You've all done some bad things to me and apparently others.  You're not there for me.  No one is.  I'm stuck with what I don't like and people acting all warbly and unsure around me all the time making me feel bad, interfering my life with my crazy dad.  Leave him alone.  I don't know why he changes from good to bad.  This has gotta stop.

I posted this to ask what people feel about like having old people die at a certain time to send a message.  Also, the deaths in Hollywood.  It's like they all moved to some secret place or with aliens.  I'm not quitting this world.

I thought you just cared what my dad said?  No one cares!

Wow, the truth must have really burst your bubble.

They are marring my body by tapping in.

We shouldn't do anything for this person cuz it's all about being against me like she's all that.

Stop nagging at me all day.

They are being vicious and forceful.  How pathetic.  That person is involved.

Stop saying I'm attacking.

Just lying it's not you.

This person is a mad attacker.

Is anyone out there?  Can you help me?  This person is superstitiously insane.

Quit getting at me for stuff that has an explanation.  Just quit ruining my life!

Oh, you see a real insect?  Well, I don't.

cont.

bit that this person won't stop insecting in my life.

Problem

This person won't stop messing with me.

They want to pretend someone I like can't hug me.  I don't like that kinda stuff, neither, tho.

OK, this is big.

Someone who started something with me is acting meanly back like I did something I shouldn't do.